​heylog - ​shredder lyrics

At night I wanna end it all
In bed as tears begin to fall
Water seeps through my pillow
I had to let it out why won't you let me be?
Is it revenge you seek?
Too bad I cared for you
More than you could ever care for me

Right now my only focus is on you
But if I die, I promise that I will warn you
But I cannot guarantee if I'll make it or not
So I'll cherish every moment with you
Stay here, I gotta go I'll be right back
I head to war when voices causing this impact
But I cannot guarantee I'll make it out alive
So I'll try my best to stay intact
Oh we out here alone with no
One there by my side
I keep on hearing these screams
And hearing people cry
But I don't know if it's real
Don't know if it's a sign
I just know that I'm frightened and horrified
Say "where is log?" - I
Don't know where they went
I vanish into thin air and wait until I'm in
Love for who I am and love for within
You took that away now there's
A shredder on my skin

If I were you I would hide
'Cause you don't know what you caused
You put on quite a show
Let's give a round of applause
So are you done hurting me?
And are you done with my head?
Keep using it like a toy
You must forgot I'm human

Don't wait for me now
I don't know how long I'll be
I'm too busy in the ground eating
Dirt you threw at me
Oh, you had your chance to let
Me go so I could breathe
Now you're the one who's eating dust
That I'm collecting on my feet
So, how does it feel now
That the roles finally swapped?
I've been living too long feeling
Disgust inside this swamp
People love to talk but never
Wanna say a thing
When I be standing right there
C'mon and say it to my face
Don't piss on my back and
Say "it's raining from outside"
I don't need no skin and bones
For me to conjure every lie
I know I forgave but honestly:
I change my mind
'Cause I could not forgive a person
Who has stabbed me many times
Say "where is log?" - I don't
Know where I have been i just stay as far as
Possible and locking every hinge
Love for who I am and love
For what I hold within
Thanks for ruining what I had
This is where I shred my skin

You hurt you hurt
You hurt you hurt, oh

Don't look at me now
I feel so guilty in my chest
Reflecting off the mirror is just
A boy 'bout to collapse
I said I wanted peace
Instead I got a giant war
And now I feel it slipping through
As if this chapters gonna end
Better start the next one
Bringing in new characters
Maybe they'll respect me and
Everything will register
'Cause I don't need nobody who
Just screws behind my back
So, tell me was it worth
It throwing everything we had?