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Happy people fall asleep in
Arms they wouldn't question
Spending time together thinking
Everything's a blessing
I just realized that I was
A pawn for several months
I just realized that my
Life's in fucking shambles

Stability (I'm not special)
Tranquility (I'm not special)
Utility (I'm her vessel)
Stupidity (I'm not special)

Stability (I'm not special)
Tranquility (I'm not special)
Utility (I'm her vessel)
Stupidity (I'm not special)

Got a lot of demons in the
Back right now but my
Blood is yours to spill
Suddenly I'm feeling like I might not escape
But I think I will (There's)

Death in my mind but I
Don't really know when
It's gonna happеn yet
Predictions and fear insidе my head
Are getting bad

Benevolent thoughts in my head sometimes
If I die tonight, then OK it's fine
If I wanna talk to you
You don't probably wanna
Talk about the things I don't wanna do

I keep puffing out dust on the car ride home
Been 6 days but I
Still don't pick up my phone

Waiting on my sis to come
Gonna teach her all the things
That I should've done
I give love to the ones
That I shouldn't love
It makes no sense at all but
She got my trust like

Stability (I'm not special)
Tranquility (I'm not special)
Utility (I'm her vessel)
Stupidity (I'm not special)

Stability (I'm not special)
Tranquility (I'm not special)
Utility (I'm her vessel)
Stupidity (I'm not special, FUCK)

I'm hurting every day
The pain won't go away wish it really would
It won't go away (I'm not special)

I don't wanna live i don't wanna sing
I don't wanna feel your hand
Go across my skin

I don't got stability
I don't got tranquility
I don't got utility i'm a fucking pawn

I don't want tranquility
I don't want utility
I don't need stability
I'm not fucking special

Stability (I'm not special)
Tranquility (I'm not special)
Utility (I'm her vessel)
Stupidity (I'm not special)

Happy people fall asleep in
Arms they wouldn't question
Spending time together thinking
Everything's a blessing
I just realized that I was
A pawn for several months
I just realized that my
Life's in fucking shambles