Hopsin - Heather Nicole lyrics
[Hopsin - Heather Nicole lyrics]
At night in my window I see your silhouette
Crying heavy tears
Look how wet my pillow gets
Throughout my days I don't smile
I just get upset
And since you left look at all
The shit that it affects
I take a picture of your face
And I just hold it up kiss it
Then reminisce on when it was both of us
It's hard for me to open up
I'm always talking to myself
But to nobody else
Some say that church or maybe
Counseling could probably help
But they don't know about all
Of my idiotic lies
All the fucking times I left you traumatized
Swore up and down to you saying I'ma try
And never did, i try not to cry but I
Feel bad I didn't apologize
It's time I cough it up and
Tell more, my soul is taken
Never sell yours i did some shit I probably
Coulda been in jail for
Bury me deep inside Hell's core
And don't let me out until
You hear bells roar
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
It's hard to forget, my heart is a brick
I tell myself "Marcus
I thought that you were smarter than this"
The mess I put you through was
Worse than Pearl Harbor and shit
I'd always harm you and flip
Mentally scar you and trip
Sometimes I'd argue and get the nerve
To call you a bitch
Then bruise your back against the dresser
That I tossed you against
My Juliet? At the time I
Never thought you was it
I do now but shit you're gone
So I just offer you this a song to you
Through it I open the crack in my chest
And show the whole world I've always
Had a lack of respect
For women who enter my life
I look to vengeance as knife
Intentions to fight
If you thinking I was senseless you right
Now every sentence I write
I think twice on it so I don't regret
'Cause only stress lies in a
Sinful mind of loneliness
I'm an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest
Welcome to my life this is
How painful my stories get
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
Now use this track as a lesson
All you guys out there
Who have some aggression
Towards your woman it don't
Have to get hectic that crap is pathetic
Now look at me I have to regret it
I can't go near her or nothing
She'll probably have me arrested
The only thing I could do is just
Make a track with a message
And hope she hears it so she
Could know I was badly affected
I never meant to be that type of guy
But, I realized that I was
And because of it I'm throwing
My sinister life aside
I can cry at any moment
Just thinking about it
Sometimes I hide it from the folks
That I'm hanging around with
I should apply for a new soul
'cause I think it's invalid
Somebody told me when I die I'll
Be safe but I doubt it
The grudge she holds against me
It hurts me so severely
She won't come near me
I thought that time was supposed to cure me
I'm so alone and weary
Writing songs to heal me
I swear that I'm sorry Heather
I mean it so sincerely
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
Crying heavy tears
Look how wet my pillow gets
Throughout my days I don't smile
I just get upset
And since you left look at all
The shit that it affects
I take a picture of your face
And I just hold it up kiss it
Then reminisce on when it was both of us
It's hard for me to open up
I'm always talking to myself
But to nobody else
Some say that church or maybe
Counseling could probably help
But they don't know about all
Of my idiotic lies
All the fucking times I left you traumatized
Swore up and down to you saying I'ma try
And never did, i try not to cry but I
Feel bad I didn't apologize
It's time I cough it up and
Tell more, my soul is taken
Never sell yours i did some shit I probably
Coulda been in jail for
Bury me deep inside Hell's core
And don't let me out until
You hear bells roar
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
It's hard to forget, my heart is a brick
I tell myself "Marcus
I thought that you were smarter than this"
The mess I put you through was
Worse than Pearl Harbor and shit
I'd always harm you and flip
Mentally scar you and trip
Sometimes I'd argue and get the nerve
To call you a bitch
Then bruise your back against the dresser
That I tossed you against
My Juliet? At the time I
Never thought you was it
I do now but shit you're gone
So I just offer you this a song to you
Through it I open the crack in my chest
And show the whole world I've always
Had a lack of respect
For women who enter my life
I look to vengeance as knife
Intentions to fight
If you thinking I was senseless you right
Now every sentence I write
I think twice on it so I don't regret
'Cause only stress lies in a
Sinful mind of loneliness
I'm an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest
Welcome to my life this is
How painful my stories get
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
Now use this track as a lesson
All you guys out there
Who have some aggression
Towards your woman it don't
Have to get hectic that crap is pathetic
Now look at me I have to regret it
I can't go near her or nothing
She'll probably have me arrested
The only thing I could do is just
Make a track with a message
And hope she hears it so she
Could know I was badly affected
I never meant to be that type of guy
But, I realized that I was
And because of it I'm throwing
My sinister life aside
I can cry at any moment
Just thinking about it
Sometimes I hide it from the folks
That I'm hanging around with
I should apply for a new soul
'cause I think it's invalid
Somebody told me when I die I'll
Be safe but I doubt it
The grudge she holds against me
It hurts me so severely
She won't come near me
I thought that time was supposed to cure me
I'm so alone and weary
Writing songs to heal me
I swear that I'm sorry Heather
I mean it so sincerely
She said, "You never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I'm calling the police"
But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
Oh, how I wish that could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you
You're gone, you're dead
You'll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head
I wish that I could tell you