K.Flay, Jax Anderson - I Don't Care Anymore lyrics

Thought that I'd be cooler, thought I'd be f— oh, shine again

Thought that I'd be cooler, thought that I'd be smarter
Thought that I'd be thinner, thought that I'd be farther
By the time I was 25, thought I'd have it set in stone
Thought I'd have a cute wife, and a house with some big windows
Now I'm here in my apartment, with some cat hair on my sweater
Drinking day-old coffee, tweeting, "Everything gets better"
And my gay panic keeps me up so late
Think I haven't slept in about a hundred days
I'm a queer kid, no roadmap
Had to figure it out without falling through the cracks
And they told me, to blend in
But what's the point in blending in when you can never meet their standards?
I'm thinking

I-I-I, I just don't care anymore (no)
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore (man, not even a little bit)
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore (in the back)
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore

Thought that it'd be easy, thought that it'd be simple
Move out of my hometown, and become someone different
Booze and noise and girls, boys and smoking, driving in a car
I'm feeling full, full of life
But where the hell I'm headed, I don't know
Feeling all this pain, but I heard you need pain to grow, so, so
Now I'm here in my apartment, looking at my girlfriend
Felt like giving up, now I'm in love, it's been a whirlwind
I'm a weird kid, no roadmap
Had to figure it out without losing my head
And they told me, to blend in
But what's the point of blending in when I don't wanna meet their standards?

I-I-I, I just don't care anymore (yeah, I just don't care)
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore (just don't care, I don't care)
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore
I-I-I, I just don't care anymore