Jay Brannan - Unstable Boy lyrics

Staring down the barrel of another holiday
Force fed a Christmas carol
Another time, another place, another way
What child is this who, who laid to rest?
Mary's love is sleeping
What child is this who, who feels so blessed?
It cannot keep from weeping
I should be tending to the horses
Who intend to cart my joy
From now until forever
I'm just a lowly unstable boy
I'm a failure on a journey
But my strength is gathering
It's only fair that I'll make it there, yeah
I'm on my way to mattering
But all the way, on the way
I couldn't contain my fear
My lips only look rosy 'cause my
Skin looks so white in here
Shred up my fingers on this bottle
Cap that won't twist off
Aching for the syrup that could cure
Me of this hacking cough
Ask me how I'm feeling and I'll say I'm okay
Though my mind is wreathing
Can't think of anything better to say
Is that what you get for
Running a yellow light?
A fistful of regret and a
Fix that doesn't last
I'm a super califragile piece of fucked up
All I need a spoon full of something fast
I should be tending to the horses
Who intend to cart my joy
From now until forever
I'm just a lowly unstable boy
I'm a failure on a journey
But my strength is gathering
It's only fair that I'll make it there, yeah
I'm on my way to mattering
But all the way, on the way
I couldn't contain my fear
My lips only look rosy 'cause my
Skin looks so white in here
Shred up my fingers on this bottle
Cap that won't twist off
Aching for the syrup that could cure
Me of this hacking cough
Stupid fucking world of mine
You keep moving the fucking finish line
You trick me over here
You hide it over there
You start another game when you
See me starting to care
Well, I don't expect you to hear me say
"I'm gonna chew my way out of
Your lab rat cage someday"
But all the way, on the way
I couldn't contain my fear
My lips only look rosy 'cause my
Skin looks so white in here
Shred up my fingers on this bottle
Cap that won't twist off
Aching for the syrup that could cure
Me of this hacking cough