Jay Prince - CLOSER lyrics

Pencilin' on a pad
I been on my thoughts, like crazy
I need you bad
Prayers to the most high when I’m most high
Fuck a good day, I'm happier when I'm sad
I been on the road and
Speakin’ to no one else
The money come in low
I'm dealin' with what I'm dealt
This is for my unborn child, needing my help
I'm lookin' for the type of the
Freedom that I ain't felt
It's only gone to waste if
You buyin’ a Gucci belt
But we Gucci when we excel and
That coochi is not for sale
Damn, don’t you leave me when I rebel
My baby says she loves me
But she needs me to be myself
Room full of vultures, cool, I'm coastin’
You be boastin', chain on flex
Like you be chokin'
Ain't no jokin’, I been floatin'
Off that green I'm smokin'
They don't want this
Smoke when I step up, east side resident
DREAMCLUB president
Made it out the ends and I'm the evidence
Still gotta check on my mama
Make sure she good
She loves it when I come back
For Christmas and eat the food
There's nothin' like a blessing that's
Precious to what you do
I'm learnin' to be honest with
People that needed truth
I'm keepin' it one hundred, I'm
Hopin' you keep it, two
See, growin' is a process
I needed to see it through

Is this what you want from me?
I give you all of me
What it's supposed to be
I'm learning on keepin' you closer
Scared that my heart's gone colder
Grindin' it out 'til it's over
It's how it goes, and now you know

Workin' it while I can promise is forever
I'm startin' to understand
The boulder's on my shoulders
I'm choosin' to take a stand
I gotta show the way for our
People to make it out
I was youth club chilling
Kickin' ball when they gave
The notice for eviction
Sixteen had about five bills for it
I gave it to my moms and
Told her how's that for it?
She told me that it's cool
That's at least a couple months
I could tell by the look on
Her face it wasn't enough fuck it
We just roll with the punches
'cause that's what's up
And our people would try and front
Acting like they got it, but fuck it
It's what they want
I never live my life through
The vision of someone else
I really gotta see
Get a feel for it for myself
Couple years back I was feelin'
It with my health yeah, I put on weight
I was hidin' from what I felt bills, bills
Bills had me feelin' like I ain't shit
Splashed a couple thousand
Was strugglin' with the rent
Thinkin' to myself, "How I get this deep?
How I'm deep in the hole
And how my fam don't know?"
Tryna keep the smile good to avoid convo
But that shit build up and
Them tears build up
'Till you're lookin' for a shoulder
You can lean on just to get the steam off
Thinkin' why I kept closed up damn

Is this what you want from me?
I give you all of me
What it's supposed to be
I'm learnin on keepin' you closer
Scared that my heart's gone colder
Ridin' it out 'til it's over
It's how it goes, and now you know

That I been patient lately
And though I been racin' lately
All I know is love can save
Ahh, yeah (Ahh, yeah)
Prayin' that this world don't take me, no
Everything I gave to my heart and soul
Remember for somethin' that was
Real and not false
Love me as I am, not when I go, like I know