Jbeasty - Crxssrxads (The Heart Of Glasstro) lyrics

At a crossroads, met a new loss
Didn't think about it much till
I ran til exhaust
Candy coated flaws on a living room wall
Represent my life and the lies I was taught
By people who I cared for, loved and I taught
Anger, frustration
And death's all it brought
All they got is lost and they fall at a cost
Tried to touch the top and they all overshot
Not much to really ease my pain
Hold my breath, hope it works
All it does is strain
Collapse under pressure minimum wage
Excuses abundant and plenty refrain
It only gets worse from there
I could've been a different dude
They don't care
Many chaos and distinct disorder
This the kinda life that I see on the corner
Everyday madness occurs
Not inside my mind but in hers
Now everything that passes is a blur
Gang signs in the air racial slurs
Is tossed on the street
I’m meeting my release writing to this beat
System’s all shutting down bout to overheat
Screw that other fella tryna be petite
That what the street say
The blocks all Negroes and esés
Blast music loud, just violence on replay
Gunshots, they be running like relays
All this crap is going down like a freeway
I wanna put life on pause
They see my failures, they see my flaws
And then the mad silence came in
Its that silence, it always wins

Homie I'm taking on the task of living
Better than watching my life go by
In song that's only half written
All of the stories and the
Hustle wasn't handed to me
I worked hard man, that was just given
Pray that I can handle the
Pressure I'm riding on
Right now man, I am just driven
Driven to the point where I can't hold back
All the tears and blood that
Running through my brain
Generally rolling around just to
Find my thoughts sitting on a one way train
Ironically irrational when it comes to
The fact that I'm rapping
That's the only way to deal with my shame
Everybody's arrogantly mocking me
But, I am getting mine up in the shade
As they heads are in the rain
Get your crap together if you
Think your adolescence is excusable
It only proves to me that you're lame
I am very young but I'm intelligent
Beyond the earthly sentimental things that
You all seem to claim i ain't here for power
Or achievement or authority
And most of y'all are here for that fame
I'm just here spread the good word
And give you the real real cause all
I have is everything to gain
I've never been more passionate
Never been more real
But to me, the ID that defines me
Shouldn't be found in my psyche or right key
It should be judged by the
Way that I'm writing
It's a battle for this music man
I'm fighting
I can't work with this, That crap ain't legit
Don't feel the way you spit
Don't fool me a bit
Either come with distinctive, or let us be
The knight has fell upon us let me be me

We are not like them (Tell Them Why)
Cause we don't think like them
(Tell 'em one more time)
We are not like them
(Tell em why, tell em why because)
We don't think like them
I live by the harbor with marauders, authors
And martyrs
Slaughter all that can conquer us
These kids are not too far for us
We live as if we're prosperous
Our values are so barbarous petty minds
No tolerance never knowing the consequence
Of being so monogamous such a shame
I'm just tryna be conscious it's
So hard to be conscious
When the people around you
Are spewing out nonsense
They're accustom to nonsense
And as days go bye
The hunger and look their eyes
Starts to fade like
Their minds Thoughts run away with the tides
Acid stains wash out with tide
That was to see if your listening
Life has it's arms open wide
No room to reside
Cannot be content neither be complacent
With the time you
Spend Make yourself anew and
Create new trends no room for drama
Cater yourself to the light
You have visions, be bright
And go shine through the night
And you'll know when your right
For your faith you must fight