Jenny Hval - Heaven lyrics

O, Heaven, O, Heaven
The next Queens-bound train
Is two stations away from Tvedestrand, my
White gown that curls around
The harbour fetal-style
I never was a girly girl, forgive me!

The white counts, the scarves
The coats, the crystals, the dark places
(Are we there yet? Where are we going?
I don't know i know it was)
The songs, the singing, underground
The white underground, deep underground
(Are we there yet? The right
And then the left, and then the right)

From the very back of the
Church choir I am standing, lone alto
Range girl in Black the front
Row clasp their hands now
They're singing with devotion i
Separate from feeling
Complex harmonic motion i
Shut my mouth and ran away
Spot out that neoliberal, girly
Heart that held no blood and made no beat
Just vibrated sweetly in the chest but, I'm
33 now, that's Jesus-age, and girl
Spaces come back to me i want
To sing religiously, you know
Airy, more than necessary, climbing the
Ladders just to fall
Uncontrollably to Heaven
I'm 33 now, that's Jesus-age and how do I
How do
I sing religiously? I want, I want, I want
Electric shocks

O, Heaven, I'm standing in a graveyard of
Girls o Tvedestrand, O, white gown
The tombstones are
So tall and hard, I want to sit
On them, put death inside my body, i want

So much death inside my body! Heaven
I'm sorry i just want to feel
So much death, a hole to nowhere