Jenny Hval, Vivian Wang, Laura Jean - The Practice of Love lyrics

Ok so, page 2? yeah as I inhale, as I inhale
As I inhale and feel my lungs fill up
With black breath to exhale
What comes out is: I
Wanted to write to you about love i
Hate "love" in my own language it
Contains the entire word "honesty" inside it
Which makes it sound religious
Protestant, hierarchic
Purified the word "love"
Comes in the way of love
And makes me want to say sorry i say sorry
With black breath
Black letters staining the air
Around me, the walls of the house, the
Bed, the desk maybe "sorry" is the closest I
Ever got to expressing love in my
Bed, honesty is lying on top of love
Sucking the blood out of it
Occupying it what's left is a
Little corpse i hope I
Don't laugh when I read this
Remember when I started
Saying "of corpse"? Hahaha! Every time
I wanted to agree on
Something this is so funny
Remember when I started
Saying "of corpse" every time I
Wanted to agree on something?
I was inserting a little slice of death with
My agreement whether it was coming
Out of my parents
Coming out with my parents for a boat trip
Or agreeing that a boy was cute corpse will
Definitely be sitting inside the
World for love is that how
You pronounce it? 'Cause
I've heard so many pronounce um-umbilical?
This is very visual
I have a thousand placentas
They are all burnt, language
Doesn't fit, community
Affinity, togetherness
The words don't work
Or they are blackened, of corpse so
What about you
And I? For you, I feel a closeness that
I can only explain as love, the unknown
The black hole i was going to say "chaos"
But, I say "the unknown" because I don't know
Where uncommon ideas and thoughts
Come from because
I don't know where uncommon ideas
Do you have to
Say common? Um, is it ok to say, "But
I say that wrong because I don't know
Where ideas and thoughts come from"? yeah

Someone who thinks that she's made
'cause she's the most, like
Blasphemous being by some, like, just have
Taking different choices
In life like, you know
Like all the sacrifices you make
As much isn't, like, uh, some kind
Of archetype, that difference, and the
The mother and the, the
The person that chooses where you begin in
Life, and then there is some
Kind of maybe you, when
You're older, you get to this
Point where you, um
Realise that maybe we're just like all the
Others anyway, it really didn't matter
Whether you were different so
I thought I was
Different, it's something it's like a, it's
Like a teenager would say, like
"I thought I was different but
I'm just like the others"
Yeah, but a, a teenager always believes
Secretly that they are different, um, and
Mm, they do, yeah, so, it's like
Everyone always thought they were different
But as you get older
Yes i'm still hanging onto that
A little bit, but, I've, i've just done some
Writing about, um, this stuff, um, for a
Book about abortion, and, um what
One thing that i kind of felt, um
Becoming someone who's in their late
30s that doesn't have a
Child, it's like, I have to accept that
I'm part of this human ecosystem, um
But, I'm not the princess and I'm not
The main character? Because I feel
Like maybe the main characters are the
People that have kids because
They literally keep the virus going
But, um, I'm like, i thought, maybe I'm the
Talking tree, or, like, maybe I'm the
Witch, or maybe I'm, I'm the
I'm a, a supporting character
And that's a hard thing for my ego to take
'cause I
Wanna be the star of the human story, but
I'm not i'm like a, I'm the
I'm someone that is in the
Background in regards to survival 'cause
I'm not directly supporting survival
I'm just, I'm supporting it in
A very abstract way
And possibly not supporting it
Possibly not supporting it, antagonist?
I'm, I could be an antagonist
But antagonists are imperative for
A virus to survive because
It makes it stronger yeah, yeah