Jenny Hval - Sabbath lyrics

I'm six or seven and dreaming that I'm
A boy i emerged out of the
Water and went into the garden with a
Small silver hand between my thighs
Later, in the shower, I see a
Boy naked he is contagious, and
I can feel mine i was told not to stare then
But my eyes have never been larger, in
& out of my body, my stare kept growing
Iii-iiii-iii-iii-ii-i-iii-i-i-i-i guess
That's what's called flesh memory oh
How I wanted to tell him that
We had switched places! In my dream
I'd had him on me
But, I didn't that day when I told her
The dog was a wolf and the
Rock was a cliff, and you're a horse! I said
If the dog was a wolf and I a boy she
Could be a horse, sure thing
She had no excuse

And we were running then, horse
And wolf and girl, braces on her teeth like
A bridle, a bride, a bridle i felt
Tight against supple, cool against hot
Wires and skin i've always been like this

Some days I feel like
My body is straightened, held up
By thin braces, metal spikes embrace
My spine, my face, my cunt i can feel
Myself from above
But, I can't see who's holding
Them it would be
Easy to think about submission, but I
Don't think it's about submission
It's about holding and being held

We ran willingly, horse-like, girl-like
Boy-like her voice neighing in
The back of her
Throat, and when I came closer we
Collided and kissed in the passing
On the mouth, like horses do i said
Her thin lips over enamel
And steel i felt the outline of
Her braces against my own
Little silver arms reaching for each other

"Jag blir aldrig som du aldrig
Jag ändras hela tiden"