Jesu, Sun Kil Moon - Song of Shadows lyrics

Reading John Connolly's novel 'A
Song Of Shadows'
Was looking out my bay window at
The stunning Golden Gate Bridge
It's May 12th, 7 pm at night
And I'm sitting here waiting for
You and I don't
Like it that we've been in a fight

I leave at the end of next week
To start a tour in Paris
And like always the night before I'm going
To take you out to Harris'
Our favorite dinner spot in the
World down on Van Ness
Me and my girl, my everything
My beautiful princess

I'm a handful anyone would agree that's true
And when I die someday everybody who knew me
Will have a good story or two
But one thing nobody ever really knew
Is just how much you mean to me
And how deeply I loved you
Without you my life would cave in
I'd be an empty old man curled up
In a bed laying there aging
I'd have a girl who'd be sitting here
Next to me staring at her phone
Shooting stupid photos of her stupid face
Out into this stupid world
Without you my life would be a ship wreck
I'd be going down to the
Bank depositing my royalty checks
Flirting with the bank tellers
Behind the desk
And when I'd walk out the door they'd all
Have a good laugh at my expense

I remember my 43rd birthday you took me
For steak and lobster at Poor Red's
We came back and got in my
Hot tub up in the mountains
There was a chill in the air
And light snow on the ground
It was the best birthday I ever
Had and I was so proud
To have you in my life and
I'd just bought the house

Now it's May 16th and I'm on
Your couch sitting by the fireplace
You're making chili in the kitchen
And it smells so good
And we've patched things up and
Now I'm feeling OK
And I'm intrigued with this character
A young girl named Amanda
The daughter of Ruth Winter in the book 'A
Song of Shadows'

She's got a thing for older men no
Time for boys her own age
And it's time to eat now so I closed the book
On an airplane ticket between the
67th and 68th page
And it's Saturday, 9 pm at night
And in this moment I love you so
Much and everything about my life

Without you I'd not have much to live for
When I come home from these long trips and
Set my shit down on the floor
I'd have a number from some
Girl from Singapore or Shanghai
And when I'd call her she'd ask
If I had Twitter or Skype
And I'd lay down on my bed
And I'd wanna fucking die
Without you my life would be a nightmare
I'd hibernate all through the winter like
A big old Alaskan brown bear
And I'd spend my Christmases &
My birthdays all alone and
Way down there in the stack of books would be
'A Song Of Shadows'