JNR Otto - Lost lyrics

I’m lost as fuck my mind has died
Can’t fake a smile livin a lie

I wake up everyday disappointed
Gotta schedule another therapist appointment
I’m scared won’t even make it to the morning
I don’t feel like I’m that important
To be watched over
Cuz all I do is get fucked over
There’s no difference between being
Drunk and sober when ya act the same but
Hide who you really are
Inside no matter if you have
Control of your mind you undеrstand me right
A lot of speaking straining my vocals
Stuck in a chokehold i Can’t gеt out
On the same route goin to
Hell I’m bound to fail

I’m scared to death i wanna cry
I wanna live i wanna die
I can’t make fuck up my own fucking mind
Since I lost that shit a long time ago
Man it went flight
I love to drive when it’s night
Because that’s when I clear my insides
And feel alright
But then shit gets darker than the myst
If nearly offed myself so many times
Can’t do that shit it is a crime
Heaven don’t accept the kind
That’s sick of life so they suicide
Man I cannot even lie anymore
Can’t even put on a smile and say I’m okay
Makes me feel worse everyday that I’ve been
Fake when I could’ve got help
But I’m too stupid to tell
Anybody how I’ve felt

I’m scared to death i wanna cry
I wanna live i wanna die
I can’t make fuck up my own fucking mind
Since I lost that shit a long time ago
Man it went flight
I love to drive when it’s night
Because that’s when I clear my insides
And feel alright in the outside
But then shit gets darker than the myst
I nearly offed myself so many times
Can’t do that shit it is a crime
Heaven don’t accept that kind of people
That’s sick of life so they suicide
Man I cannot even lie anymore
Can’t even put on a smile and say I’m okay
Makes me feel worse everyday that I’ve been
Fake when I could’ve got help i have tho
But I didn’t stay around
Cuz I though I felt better
But really it was all caps and wack
Can’t crack me open unless you
Know all the facts

Ain’t tryna make ya feel bad
Just wanna fucking express yeah
Is there a motherfucking problem
Of course there is i can’t fucking solve em
Don’t think straight don’t talk straight
Don’t blink straight don’t walk straight
I’m a fucking mess but we can
All relate in different ways
We all got different shoes too fill
Some got holes that ain’t patched up
Some got stolen and are never found
Some got so worn that they
Blended with the ground
Some got a blood drip from a finger prick
Some stepped in shit and
Were tossed real quick
So many different shoes were filled
All of us are lost but in different ways
None of us can relate
Even if we all bleed the same
Someone always got different kind
Of story to say

I’m lost as fuck my mind has died
Can’t fake a smile livin a lie
I’m lost as fuck my mind has died
Can’t fake a smile livin a lie

It’s hard to try when there is no pride
It’s hard to cry when rain gone dry
It’s hard to laugh when there is no smile
It’s hard to breathe when ya oxygen cut
It’s hard to bleed when ya wound is shut
It’s hard to think when ya mentally blocked
It’s hard to see when ya vision is dusk
It’s hard to scream when ya jaw closed shut
It’s hard to stop when ya addicted to drugs
It’s hard to run when ya trapped in cuffs
It’s hard to sleep when ya dreams don’t come
It’s hard to love when ya cannot trust
It’s hard to fight when ya ain’t that tough
It’s hard to live when ya
Don’t believe ya enough