Joe Budden - Alive lyrics

SL parks on the board
Real niggas in the booth, let's go
I got Kdot on the keys it go (it go)
Check this, listen

I got strangers in my face
Beggin' me to take a picture
Still self-centered
They can give a fuck 'bout how a nigga feel
Bitches hang around to hang around
Even when shit get real
But I ain't left nothin'
Maybe I should write a different will
They usin' me I'm usin' them
They don't see the angle
Therapeutic, I don't even fuck
'em unless it's painful
Why do all these bitches seem to
Think they can change Joe?
Judge me all you want I never
Claim to be an angel
Patriotic, psychotic, obsessive-compulsive
Convulsive, neurotic
On narcotics
Searchin' for you if you got it
Seein' young blacks gettin' killed weekly
That's a moot fact
If these coppers shoot at me
Trust me I'mma shoot back
Maybe y'all 'll pray for me
But I don't mean once or even twice
I mean every day for me so I'm on my knees
There's gotta be a better way for me
Open these windows and these doors
But demons stay with me
And baby that's okay with me

I gave you my all, what made you wanna leave?
Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me
This be enough to make a nigga cry
I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry
They won't ever take me alive
All I ever do is survive
And I know cause they already tried
It's too late cause I've already died
At least inside, they'll never take me alive

Lemme get far as fuck away from these niggas
Fuck away from these hoes
Where I'm at now it's fuck
Music I don't wanna rap
I don't wanna perform or host
And my father's sayin' "get it together"
And nothin' matters but my health
Hope heaven reserved a section for
An addict like myself
Watchin' myself on TV see my
Knees shaking on that show
Plus the way shorty's life is now
I bet she's rethinking that "no"
She thought she was only
Sayin' no to marriage
But that "no" is to so much more
Now I can't wait to see what her path is
I guess being a wife ain't sound as
Fun as bein' a bad bitch
Couldn't deal with my habit's
Wasn't me though you'd been catfish
We're speakin' a different language
Showin' you the signs in morse code
Last time a nigga loved two
Bitches I lost 'em both so she scared
Try not to get emotionally invested
I know God will find a way
For those emotions to get tested
Which is cool, maybe not for me
Front all you want in your heart somewhere
I know there's a spot for me
The sad part is when it's vacant
I'll be gone how I love you but I hate you
And all you're doing is being the
Person that I made you
From hateful to graceful
From rageful to grateful
Then God came and snatched that space for you
I tried to save it boo
Everything I caught myself building to that
Point was made for two
Writing out the script
Wish you'd a told me the page was full
But fuck it, He knows better than I
Regret'll subside, let's sever the ties
After all it's just one less goodbye

Lemme get far as fuck away from these bitches
Fuck away from these hoes
Lemme get far as fuck away from my niggas
Lemme get real close to my foes
They tellin' me that I gotta act famous now
Etcetera
I been regular, so I feel like an anus now
See all of this time I've
Just been treatin' y'all accordingly
On an even plane like no one is
Any less or more than me
But the Lord agrees he said
"keep playin' with fire
If you're Joseph you'll get burned"
I hate second guessing I'll wait
'til the motives get confirmed ()
Call from the shorty, we off that bitch
Option time models, sport some
All these cities, I got to tour one
All these bottles, I got to pour one
All these hoes, i got to call one
Our situation is a tall one
What you gonna do, pour or run?
So I'm spending forty thousand
Dollars on a time-piece
Help my self esteem and get this
Shit up off my mind please
Anybody lookin' for me
Y'all know where to find me
I be right up Steinway nigga I
Ain't playing hide and seek
Let that liquor induce ya
Then watch how fast it go from
A couple niggas on the hookah
To some triggers, to them shooters
Everything that's going on is kinda
Sicker than I'm used to
I'm just wrestling with them snakes
You ever kick it with Medusa?
Let me get the fuck away from these pills
The fuck away from this drinkin'
Let me get the fuck away outta my way
Let me get far as fuck away from my thinkin'
'Till it's better, it's whatever
Shit I'm unapologetic
Since all i got is my word nigga
Tell 'em that i said it it's Joe


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