Joe Budden - Angel in My life lyrics

B: Hello mike: Ayo b what's hood yo
B: What's going on mike
Mike: Aye I've been trying to
Get in touch with mouse
You spoke to him lately
B: What you mean I spoke
To him you ain't hear mike: Naw
B: Nigga got dragged out his house
In a fucking straight jacket mike: For what
B: Cause he talking about killing himself
And taking people with him mike: You lying
B: Then they found mad drugs in his system
Man this nigga's gone he's lost yo

Let look behind the Swarovski crystals
Behind the 50 calibers and the pistols
Misuse pardon self gotta excuse my issues
For me just to have them a ritual
But, I ain't as crazy as I seem to be
It's just that nothing is the way
That is seems to me


I'm feeling less than drugging
Him up with anti-depressants
In essence I'm threatening
My character assessment truth told
I figure a few hoes mixed
With some new clothes
Should cover my loop holes
If I'm misunderstood or misguided
Started when they passed the L, said
"Just try it" when I don't want to get out
Of bed I just fight it
Sometimes I don't eat for days I just diet
Only live once so if I just like it
I ain't even checking the price
I just buy shit
I'm thinking that will just hide it
But all it takes is life to ignite shit
Thinking bout death wondering how I'm gone go
I can't be insane for just wanting to know
In my head I die often
I use to think of suicide often
Good suit on and a nice coffin
But that ain't something I would try myself
Still they locked me in this
Room all by myself
I need a, I think I need a

Mike: I can't even believe this
Shit you saying right now
Yo that don't even sound like Mouse
B: just like we was at
The club the other night
This nigga ran out the club
Start shooting my man up mike: word!
B: For no reason then
This nigga talking about
He's the only one who can save him
The apocalypse is coming and he's
The savior of all mankind mike: that's crazy
B: that nigga ain't his self no more

They say my symptoms are aggressive
They title me a compulsive
Obsessive slash manic depressive
They tryna tell me that I'm a
Con and I game niggas
That's one reason I don't
Even entertain niggas
Not important who they are
I won't name niggas they like to say I got
A tendency to blame niggas
I keep fucking shit up but keep trying
If ya'll would just trust me
I wouldn't just keep lying
If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt
Let me clarify get in-depth
I feel like every time I been less
Whenever I invest
Whenever I am set, I feel like I'm inept
I try to make 'em understand
But they just won't
I'm telling 4 million other I am the template
There ain't a book that tells a
Story there is no index
We got some different type of cuts
And no there not princess
All this indigest seemingly endless
How I take in stress when I always went best
Aching in my chest yet and
Still it won't break me
They say the room's padded for my own safety
But the cushion don't soften shit
They locked the door but still they
Let my thoughts in it
And no one can tell me why I'm here
I can't even see the sky from here
I guess my time is near

Mike: ayo we really need to
Go see that nigga yo
B: hum I don't know we could do
That but last time I saw him
He wasn't looking good they had
Him in the room
IV's all in his arm looking like he was
In a daze like his body was there
Mike: You spoke to him?
B: Mentally he was gone they
Wouldn't let me near him
They had a guard by him on 24 hour watch
Had all these prescriptions he was taking
Mike: damn yo that ain't even him
B: I don't know what's going
On with that nigga i just gotta keep him in
My prayers hope everything's good