Joe Budden - Black Cloud lyrics
[Joe Budden - Black Cloud lyrics]
Nothing stays the same forever not even me
Uh, uh check this, check It
Something must’ve changed me
Niggas might defame me
But things that used to taint me
No longer seem to restrain me
Strangely I’m no longer sad, mad or angry
Shame-ably it pains me
Feeling like it just ain’t me
Mainly what do I tell all
The people that thank me
Namely those who ordain me
Aside from can you blame me
Motivation the "Game" was supplying me
It's no longer providing me
Jason Williams something killed whatever
Was driving me worrying less about the past
More about the now
Less about what I’m going through
More about the how
It’s for certain spent 30 years
Being fit for hurdling
Now I’m a different person with nothin' to
Overcome and I miss the burden
For certain, got 6 figures in my sock drawer
And honestly this year I expect
To make a lot more
It’s hard to live without a
Budget when life is corrupted
In a house that's so peaceful that
I’m trying to disrupt it
Scream fuck it not because I have
To but because I love it
Which makes me as fake as the
Puppets that I speak of disgusted
Without a paddle up shit’s creek
Dig deep and see it ain’t life it’s just me
So be warned as I’m putting
On like I’m reformed
Only so y’all can accept it as being my norm
Maybe I quit working on me, maybe I given up
Maybe I been lying to myself
Maybe I give a fuck
It’s enough to make you black out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from the black cloud
Every day we playing cat-and-mouse
As I watch it hovering over my glass house
It’s enough to make you spazz out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from a black cloud
Tired enough for me to pass out
Tired of running from the black cloud
I say it loud hoping someone
Can hear me clearly
Trying to make my girl get it she
Don’t know that it’s very scary
But she’s a nympho she can be barely near me
She still want the God in her
Think she Mary Mary
The prettiest bitches just want to service me
While niggas' prettiest bitches wouldn’t get
A word from me
Some of you haven’t heard from me
Some of you wouldn’t mind murking me
Find that news funny likes it's
Straight from Ron Burgundy
These niggas ain’t never seen dough
They can dream though I bump
Into ‘em in between shows
People say I'm Emo
What that really mean though
Is though the song can’t breathe I
Actually make it seem so
I lost loved ones because they
Couldn’t deal with me
Cherish whoever still with me though the
Merit's been killed in me
Normally it’s just me and my lonely mind
Everyone storm is different so this
Forecast is only mine
Fans recognize my misery uplifted me
Shifted me to my epitome
Guess the curse is a gift to me
Maybe it's serendipity
Maybe it’s weighing on me physically
Maybe I should man up and tell
God not to solicit me
Been medicated, meditated, sedated, hated
Character assassinated
All theses years I masqueraded hard headed
If it was on my mind I had to say it
Tongue on the devil’s pitchfork to
See how disaster tasted
Rap is fabricated, rappers are so exaggerated
Wouldn’t be scared of the truth
If they weren’t castrated
Grab a mag, spray it
Surrounded by people that shoot it before me
That'll unconditionally love my
Beautiful ugly
Now lemme speak to who I cater to
Would you love me the same if
All my weeks were not favorable
Promised to maintain being
Unique but relate-able
All while suffering from a disease that
Can do away with you poetry on the beat
Spoken-word for the masses
Therapy over Pro Tools, every word is on acid
Consonants on Kush, every vowel is blunted
Highly wanted this whole
Organization privately funded
This is bigger than the Eiffle
This is alert the public
Had coppers bar our tunnels and
Our bridges with the rifles
Sentences meant to stifle
This is a man aching
This is the dam breaking
Contraband in the making
This is panic unveiling
Got potential but I never met it
He be trying to come over
It seem like God won’t let it
Either he never got my invite
Or he just dismissed it
But, if all I’m hearing are
The sounds of blackness
Why am I pessimistic?
You’ll never progress if you’ll never try
All I ask, let every word I birth, never die
My wings spread, but when I met the sky
Weather didn’t change like I thought
And had me petrified
It’s enough to make you black out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from the black cloud
Every day we playing cat-and-mouse
As I watch it hovering over my glass house
It’s enough to make you spazz out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from a black cloud
Tired enough for me to pass out
Tired of running from the black cloud
Uh, uh check this, check It
Something must’ve changed me
Niggas might defame me
But things that used to taint me
No longer seem to restrain me
Strangely I’m no longer sad, mad or angry
Shame-ably it pains me
Feeling like it just ain’t me
Mainly what do I tell all
The people that thank me
Namely those who ordain me
Aside from can you blame me
Motivation the "Game" was supplying me
It's no longer providing me
Jason Williams something killed whatever
Was driving me worrying less about the past
More about the now
Less about what I’m going through
More about the how
It’s for certain spent 30 years
Being fit for hurdling
Now I’m a different person with nothin' to
Overcome and I miss the burden
For certain, got 6 figures in my sock drawer
And honestly this year I expect
To make a lot more
It’s hard to live without a
Budget when life is corrupted
In a house that's so peaceful that
I’m trying to disrupt it
Scream fuck it not because I have
To but because I love it
Which makes me as fake as the
Puppets that I speak of disgusted
Without a paddle up shit’s creek
Dig deep and see it ain’t life it’s just me
So be warned as I’m putting
On like I’m reformed
Only so y’all can accept it as being my norm
Maybe I quit working on me, maybe I given up
Maybe I been lying to myself
Maybe I give a fuck
It’s enough to make you black out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from the black cloud
Every day we playing cat-and-mouse
As I watch it hovering over my glass house
It’s enough to make you spazz out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from a black cloud
Tired enough for me to pass out
Tired of running from the black cloud
I say it loud hoping someone
Can hear me clearly
Trying to make my girl get it she
Don’t know that it’s very scary
But she’s a nympho she can be barely near me
She still want the God in her
Think she Mary Mary
The prettiest bitches just want to service me
While niggas' prettiest bitches wouldn’t get
A word from me
Some of you haven’t heard from me
Some of you wouldn’t mind murking me
Find that news funny likes it's
Straight from Ron Burgundy
These niggas ain’t never seen dough
They can dream though I bump
Into ‘em in between shows
People say I'm Emo
What that really mean though
Is though the song can’t breathe I
Actually make it seem so
I lost loved ones because they
Couldn’t deal with me
Cherish whoever still with me though the
Merit's been killed in me
Normally it’s just me and my lonely mind
Everyone storm is different so this
Forecast is only mine
Fans recognize my misery uplifted me
Shifted me to my epitome
Guess the curse is a gift to me
Maybe it's serendipity
Maybe it’s weighing on me physically
Maybe I should man up and tell
God not to solicit me
Been medicated, meditated, sedated, hated
Character assassinated
All theses years I masqueraded hard headed
If it was on my mind I had to say it
Tongue on the devil’s pitchfork to
See how disaster tasted
Rap is fabricated, rappers are so exaggerated
Wouldn’t be scared of the truth
If they weren’t castrated
Grab a mag, spray it
Surrounded by people that shoot it before me
That'll unconditionally love my
Beautiful ugly
Now lemme speak to who I cater to
Would you love me the same if
All my weeks were not favorable
Promised to maintain being
Unique but relate-able
All while suffering from a disease that
Can do away with you poetry on the beat
Spoken-word for the masses
Therapy over Pro Tools, every word is on acid
Consonants on Kush, every vowel is blunted
Highly wanted this whole
Organization privately funded
This is bigger than the Eiffle
This is alert the public
Had coppers bar our tunnels and
Our bridges with the rifles
Sentences meant to stifle
This is a man aching
This is the dam breaking
Contraband in the making
This is panic unveiling
Got potential but I never met it
He be trying to come over
It seem like God won’t let it
Either he never got my invite
Or he just dismissed it
But, if all I’m hearing are
The sounds of blackness
Why am I pessimistic?
You’ll never progress if you’ll never try
All I ask, let every word I birth, never die
My wings spread, but when I met the sky
Weather didn’t change like I thought
And had me petrified
It’s enough to make you black out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from the black cloud
Every day we playing cat-and-mouse
As I watch it hovering over my glass house
It’s enough to make you spazz out
Pull a Mac out aim it at the sky while I’m
Running from a black cloud
Tired enough for me to pass out
Tired of running from the black cloud