Joe Budden, Emanny - Only Human lyrics

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Uhh please somebody help my soul
Please somebody help my soul
Please somebody help my soul
Please somebody help my soul
Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)

I let the Man have a talk
With the beast in me
I'm holding onto my last bit of decency
I need a vacay, a change of scenery
But mama said wherever I'ma go
I'm taking me with me
I told her shit is on my
Mind and it's been eating me
She got me pissing in a cup
She don't believe in me
It's not the drugs that got
Me out of my zone
Going days without eating, in a
Crowd I feel alone, mama
Then she ask why it seems
I never sleep at night
I told her when I close my eyes
My brain just keeps the fight
She said my friends wanna have
An intervention with me
I speak to niggas daily
That was never mentioned to me
She told me there's a higher
Power and a lower power
And that I'll die if I don't
Find the strength to overpower
Then I replied, "well aren't we all"?
She said "yeah, but that should
Be on God's terms, not yours"

My every thought is scary
And it makes it hard to breathe again
Like I'm blinded while I'm
Staring in the mirror
Asking God to help me see again
Please help me
But He tells me I'm only human
And that I'll be back on my feet again
Please help me
But they act like I'm more than human
I prove them wrong again
Don't fault me, I'm only human

Tryin' to weather the storm
I thought that black cloud was gone
It's been beside me all along, not the song
I wanna sit in silence
Don't speak for a minute
Tired of being strong
Please let me be weak for a minute
Kinda thought that my disease tried
To kill your man first it was easy to get my
Hands on 30 milligram Percs, worse
Can't be depression
Couldn't have it this long
So many secrets I only told
To a glass of Patron, my nigga
Speaking of secrets
That's when I got the Kaylin text
Read it and cried
Couldn't believe what she was saying next
She said "you're going through a lot
I'm hoping you ain't in the grave and dead
Cause not too many people know
Your brain's a mess"
Who knew that she was keeping
Track of it all? I wrote back "lol" but
Wasn't laughing at all
I ain't tell her just the other day
That that gun was in my lap
Pen and pad in my hand
And I was writing a note didn't get far
As soon as I wrote down
"mom" I just stopped couldn't lie to her
Couldn't figure out how to say bye to her
Couldn't explain the "why" to her
Couldn't picture her getting a
Call or somebody
Saying her son had died to her
And shortly after that my pastor called
Which at first I kinda thought it was weird
But that convo preserved me
'bout God's grace and mercy
He ain't even say goodbye
He said "let us pray"
And then he went into a
Prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyes
Just so happy he appeared
Nigga shed another tear
Maybe he could sense that something
Had the god devoured
Just thankful he shed some light
Upon my darkest hour
All my thoughts are corrupt
This shit is whack
If everybody calls you a duck
Will you just quack?
Guess a part of me really gives a fuck
Way in the back
Cause when I had that burner ready to bust
I didn't clap joe

My every thought is scary
And it makes it hard to breathe again
Like I'm blinded while I'm
Staring in the mirror
Asking God to help me see again
Please help me
But He tells me I'm only human
And that I'll be back on my feet again
Please help me
But they act like I'm more than human
I prove them wrong again
Don't fault me, I'm only human

Guess I'm insanity's definition
Trying to step over in sanity's repetition
But I can't it got me tripping
Whatever love we had was dead that night
Looking back
We both needed cooler heads that night
Was going off no sleep, eyes red that night
While you was drunk texting me
I hope I read that right
You was beefing bout Giselle
Beefing bout Alexa suddenly you was jealous
Must've thought that I had sexed her
I was laughing, thought it was funny
Giselle's the homie, Alexa's twenty
With hip withdrawals
Nothing bout your story shoulda
Been sticking at all
I wouldn't dick her at all i'm guessing
Maybe you were insecure and never knew me
Was there for four months
Yet you said this was a new me in your head
Guess the answer to this jealousy
Was to turn around and try
To make me jealous, b
But the part that you neglect
Was never mind jealousy
This was 'bout respect
Y'all Instagramming pictures
Trying to get me upset
You turned that into a night
We both would never forget
We both said some things
We both probably regret
You was lying to my face
And them dots didn't connect, but cool
Only picked you up to try
And talk sense into you
Now I'm fucking homeboy up
Just off the principle
I guess he caught him self antagonizing me
But he's a young nigga
That's no surprising me
Shit I done fucked some of the baddest hoes
I left shorty weeks ago, you can have this ho
I guess the part where I lose
Is now they got my face
Plastered all over the news
I'm being falsely accused
And I don't understand
Was this all part of a plan?
I guess I'll tell the whole
Truth when on the stand
How you go and tell the cops
I had guns in my house?
Now they got a search warrant
Just to come to my house
Question: were your feelings worth
Taking my tomorrow's, kid?
And you know Jersey gun laws
I'm talking hollow tips
So you can tell them niggas you
Roll with whatever you want
But you and I know what's going on
Nigga that whole night just
Replays in my mind your face is fine
This is a big waste of time
Let's get back to that jealousy
Now you got a nigga facing three felonies
All for what, cause we were no longer dealing
You attack me, but I'm the villain
Over a fucking iPhone and feelings
Check, you never see me act like a jerk
I know women will provoke you and
Get mad when it works
Rather reserved and that always
Makes matters the worst
Cause I go on about my business
And not act like it hurts, but wait
So now the whole world is
Watching me get burned here which is fine
There's a lesson to be learned here
Which is only fuck with
Strippers and the bartenders
Anytime there's a pole in the bar centered
So even though it's from afar now
I still wish you the best
I know your heart's tender i'm sorry all
I just got my own scars to tend to
Signing off, truly yours, with love
God's sinner

My every thought is scary
And it makes it hard to breathe again
Like I'm blinded while I'm
Staring in the mirror
Asking God to help me see again
Please help me
But he tells me I'm only human
And that I'll be back on my feet again
Please help me
But they act like I'm more than human
I prove them wrong again
Don't fault me, I'm only human
My every thought is scary
And it makes it hard to breathe again
Like I'm blinded while I'm
Staring in the mirror
Asking God to help me see again
Please help me
But he tells me I'm only human
And that I'll be back on my feet again
Please help me
But they act like I'm more than human
I prove them wrong again
Don't fault me, I'm only human