Joey Contreras, George Salazar - This is Not Me lyrics

Silence, numbing
Stop the noisy chatter in the head
Need something else instead
Breathing, zoning

And I fly when I’m high and
I soar out the door and it's calming
Out looking in and I run
Into him and it's haunting so drawing
But this is not me

Searching waiting
All the while, playing
They all think they know putting on the show
Curtain, closing

And I dream in between
Everyone’s public scene cause, I'm lonely
And at night, an excuse
Another chance to abuse what I'm hiding
What I'm fighting and he’ll say
"How are you today?" and I see in his eyes
He thinks that we’re that way
I was gone I was fucked
I was blacked out and drunk okay?

Don't accuse me don't push me
Don't touch me don’t love me

Easy, leaving brushing off the guilt
But deep down I feel that maybe we are real

Now I cry when I'm high
And I run to no one cause he’s hurting
Guess the pain that I cause when
I’m not under a drug is long lasting

Well screw it I’m fine line up another line
And I’m growing and I’m thriving
I’m the one who’s surviving he’s so weak
And I will not concede this is not
Me