John Grant - Faint Positive Lateral Flow lyrics

I remember walking back and forth and
All around from room to room
I remember thinking to myself:
Where should I be
I hadn’t been there for a long time
And I had no set routine
I looked in the mirror and decided
Not to blame myself for everything
(Just for a while)
How can i grieve when I’ve yet
To finish all that other grieving
I’m so behind and I’m not even sure
If this is how it’s done
I remember wondering how exactly should
I now be feeling
I interacted with the shadows moving
Up and down the walls
Maybe I’d know what i should do if
I had bothered to have children
People with children make me so damn mad
They act like they’re so smart
How can i grieve when I’ve yet
To finish all that other grieving
I’m so behind and I’m not even sure
If this is how it’s done
What if I’ve been doing it all wrong
Like I’ve been told since the beginning
I had just begun to get used to the
World we had and now it’s gone