John Reuben - X-Ray lyrics

Broken reality there's no means of escape
Broken reality lookin' to
Leave this mind-state
But the more that I leave the
Harder it seems I come back
Now I'm livin' out these lies
That I call my trap and I call it that cuz
I didn't do this intentionally
What I now call my trap I
Used to call my fantasy
And why do we fantasize in
Order to leave the reality
Of not being able to
Relate personally or socially
Somtimes I wonder what it would
Feel like to be respected
But until then I'll dream
About bein' accepted
I wonder what it would feel
Like to be respected

All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside
All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside

Man somebody get me out of this place
Of loneliness hopelessness depression
And disgrace at this pace I'm on
The verge of self-destruction
With nothin' to go on but my self instruction
So what does that leave me
I try to communicate with the world
But none of you out there could perceive me
So instead of words I began
To express through actions
So anger n rage become my mere satisfaction
Hate shows my being I'm seeing
No means of release
So I escape into my fantasy
Where I live in peace
Here I can be anybody I want to here
I can be anybody I choose too
Here in this place I feel good
There's no restriction this place
Is so good that it's becoming my addiction

All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside
All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside

I say I'm not lost but why am i searching
I say pain don't fade me but
Then again why am I hurtin
I say I won't show emotion but yet
I can't hide these eyes that
Have been stained by tears
I say I can't be held back but yet
I've been in the same place for years
I say I wanna go free
But something keeps me bound
I say I wanna go higher but
My feet haven't left the ground
Man I told ya'll I didn't care but then
Again why is my heart so heavy
I told the world to bring it but
Deep down I knew I wasn't ready
I said I couldn't be deceived meanwhile I'm
Walking into the same old traps
I said I couldn't be broke as
I watch my world collapse
Watch my world collapse
I said I couldn't be deceived meanwhile I'm
Walking into the same old traps
I said I couldn't be broke as
I watch my world collapse

All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside
All wrong no right no one no sun no
Light this life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go
You can't escape whats inside
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you
Can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go