Josie Wails - Suicide lyrics

There are so many skirts under the table
None of these long legs are mine
She calls around finds me crying
Wish I were capable of lying sometimes

I made the noose tied up in what she said
It makes a lot of sense to me now
That she is dead she used to tell me she
Can't keep living without
Me and now it seems I know
What that shit is about
I wake up from a nightmare
Screaming in the dark
Dreaming of a crimson bathtub
Think I'm bleeding from the heart
Safe wager, straight razor butterfly
Kisses in her mothers eyes
This is my fault from a fourth story window
I will otherwise miss the sidewalk
But I'll be floating
Coming to my death and now the
World will never know me
I'll find a better reason for them to know
Love the poison
But hate the taste it's leaving in my throat
And I never thought my cousin was a prophet
Turn the water on
Blood is running from the faucet
I'm lost in the suicide cycle
It's you and I through the eyes of Jesus
I just want to be throught with my diseases

Love is hell, hell is love
Hell is asking to be loved

It's a livin' hell that she been livin' in
Floating down the river being
Hunted like deliverance
Hand trembles slowly as she place
It on pistols grip
Fit's the barrel in her mouth and
Brace it like a cigarette
Visions of the underworld swimming
In the river sticks
All she gotta do is squeeze
Until she feels the trigger
Then boom, she tries to finish it
Voom it get a spin in the room
It kinda read by the
Wounds that she's inflicted
Her world is fadin in and out
She's waiting for her heart to stop
Panic settin' in she grabs a towel
And it's hard to cry
Drags herself from down the stairs and
Out into the parking lot
Blood trails behind her screaming
"Get me to a hospital!"
Screams turn to silence she plays
It out in her head what it would be like if
Somebody were to find her
It had to be a child
Forever scared by violence
Every time he sees the color
Red it's a reminder and then she dies there

Love is hell, hell is love
Hell is asking to be loved

I search my whole album collection
Playing songs backwards
To see if they wanted me to do it
I'm underneath the ruins
Of a city left to crumble
Of what is slowly came
I don't want to go perform
Tonight I wanna go away i wanna go away
'Cause all my friends are dead
Should I feel like I'm avenging them?
Should I feel like if I take
My life then I'm avenging them?
I take one, two, three, down the hatch
Four, five, six, now I'm detached
Seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven
Is the heaven for a
Boy's crucifix empty headed
Were leaded envelop our hopelessness
It's all the fucking world tried
To sell to us
But wait, never mind open the gate