K.Flay - It's Just A Lot lyrics

I never knew
The sky could burn a hole into my empty head
I never knew
A smile could turn us into enemies instead
Oh, the never-ending bliss of moments
That you missed returning
Back like waves for second tries at luck
The luck you didn't have back then
But now that it don't matter
Much it's easy love and strangers
Acting like your oldest friends

It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

I should have seen
The signs
Clovers starting dying in the field
I shouldn't be
Surprised when all the sudden all
Of it is real
Oh, I tried to write a
Book but I misunderstood what
I had seen and so the story made no sense
And stories all depend on
Whose perspective you prefer
Is it an I or is it her
And does it matter in the end

It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

I saw a film
And cried cause beauty has a
Way of crushing me
I took a pill
And sighed cause I've done things
Against which I believe
Oh, I think of you at night when
My mind won't stay quiet and
I've got someone sleeping
Peacefully at home
But peace don't reach my bones
The sadness still remains and though
I sing the same refrain
It all amounts to no one knows

It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It's just a lot, it's just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

You get it right
You get it wrong
It never stops
It's just a lot