Killstation - Xiphinema lyrics
[Killstation - Xiphinema lyrics]
Maybe it's that I believe that
Subconsciously I'm not worthy
Or deserving of being happy
But for a long time I've
Not wanted to be here
And there's nothing that I can
Do to leave here faster
I can't kill myself, I can't
It's not that I don't want to
It's that I absolutely cannot kill myself
I've tried multiple times, numerous times
And I cannot die, I won't fucking die
Some of me thinks, I live to die
And I want to die
Because I want the pain to stop
The medication doesn't help
The psychiatrists and therapists
They don't help none of it helps
None of it helps
Subconsciously I'm not worthy
Or deserving of being happy
But for a long time I've
Not wanted to be here
And there's nothing that I can
Do to leave here faster
I can't kill myself, I can't
It's not that I don't want to
It's that I absolutely cannot kill myself
I've tried multiple times, numerous times
And I cannot die, I won't fucking die
Some of me thinks, I live to die
And I want to die
Because I want the pain to stop
The medication doesn't help
The psychiatrists and therapists
They don't help none of it helps
None of it helps