King Christian, 93FEETOFSMOKE - I Can’t Figure It Out lyrics

Do you remember scraping resin with me
Just to cop a buzz
All the clocks we killed together
Still,  we couldn't get enough
Not even of each other
We just rode out all the lust
I’m fucked up on co-dependence
No pills make me feel as numb
As when i think about the thing
You lied about since we were young
And I hope you find a purpose with you
When you're gone

I hope you find some reason
To be happy and go on
Still bending towards the light
With concentrations in my palm
Hands shaking, still sweaty
Lying lifeless on your lawn
Hands shaking, still sweaty
Lying nauseous on your lawn

I hope you find some reason
To be happy and go on
Still bending towards the light
With concentrations in my palm
Hands shaking, still sweaty
Lying lifeless on your lawn
Hands shaking, still sweaty
Lying nauseous on your lawn

I'm not just anyone actions of my own

How am I supposed to specify
When everything’s wrong?
You're not here to hold my hand
I feel like everyone's gone
I don't care about myself
Been like this for so long
But you don't even fucking care
Or even pick up the phone
How am I supposed to specify
When everything's wrong?
How am i supposed to wanna live
When everything's gone?
How am I supposed to specify
When everything's wrong?
How am I supposed to give a shit
When everything’s gone?

I know (i know) i’m nothing (I'm nothing)
I know (i know) i’m nothing (I'm nothing)
I'll show (I'll show) something (something)
Feelings that I have for everyone
Stopped bothering quickly
I thought you loved me so shit