King Skam, Emeli Sandé - Don’t Give Up lyrics

Look at me now i'm at this crossroad
Don't know how to cross though
Don't even know if I wanna cross yo
I'm at a point in my
Life where nothing is certain
And I gotta think before I act

Think about every move I'mma make, every
Move could be the last
And the last could be a mistake
I'm suicidal
Living in my own misery without company
I gotta think fast
Do I pull over the trigger

Or do I step away once again
I've been here before and I
Probably stand here again
Ever since I've given up
People help me back up
But I don't wanna stand up, help me
I'm giving up
But I don't want no help, I do this by myself

But don't believe me when I say it
Everythings gonna be just fine
Quit lying to myself
What's coming after that, cus

'Cause when you've given up
When no matter what you do
It's never good enough
When you never thought that it
Could ever get this tough
Thats when you feel my kind of love

Home is where you find peace
That's why I wanna drink myself to sleep
All my life I wanted nothing but compliments
Now I rather sit at home
Drinking six bottles of vodka
And lose consciousness

Pass out on the floor every night
Hoping I'll never
Wake up again, Cus I live in a nightmare
Living off well-fare
Got two jobs to pay the rent
Stuck on a shitty job
I don't wanna live my life like this
In a lie like this

I wanna sleep tight in nights like this
Fuck a life like this
Everythings going wrong
Thinking bout words for the song
And think about what heaven's like
Or should I go to hell
Damn, thought I heard my mother yell, but I
Haven't heard her voice in awhile, "Damn son
Another F you ain't gonna be successful" But
I'mma be a rapper so fuck it!

'Cause when you've given up
When no matter what you do
It's never good enough
When you never thought that it
Could ever get this tough
Thats when you feel my kind of love