La Dispute - I See Everything lyrics

Like any morning of my junior
Year I stumble in
The classroom late but this day I see
Faces, I feel an air like
A funeral, like a wake, as I sit down
My teacher speaking, somewhat somberly
But still confident and calm
Part eulogy, her speech, and part poem
Part celebration song her warmth and smile
She passes photocopies out to us
Of entries from a journal
Kept so long ago she starts to
Read and suddenly it’s 1980

March 5 The cancer is furious
But our son is resilient
We have all the faith we’ll get through
This no matter what the end
Treatments are violent but he
Keeps on smiling
It’s amazing finding joy in the little things
April 12-Andrew’s appetites improved and
We thank God everyday
But still it’s hard sometimes to see
Him in that scarecrow frame

July 9 There’s a suffering when I look in
His eyes he’s been through so much
We’ve all been through so much but what
Incredible resolve our little boy shows
Only 7, standing face to face with death
He said it’s easy to find people
Who have suffered worse than him
"Like Jesus, suffered worse than anyone, "
He told me last night
"when God abandoned him"

September 20 We’ve been playing in the
Yard lately and spirit's are high
Although his blood counts aren’t

October 14-He feels tired all the time

November 30-At the hospital again it feels
Like home when we’re here

December 8-He’s getting worse

January 19 We buried our son today
Our youngest child
And while his death was ugly we must
Not let it scare us from God
Abundant grace has restored him
A brand new body
And set him free from the torture
Finally rid of the cancer
Before the moment he left he briefly wrested
From death, suddenly opened his eyes, said
"I see everything, I see everything"

And I will never forget it
The peace and the comfort you
Displayed through a pain
That I can only imagine the loss of a
Child to the torture of cancer help me
Because, I can only imagine how you recovered
Kept your faith and held the
Brightness of life inside
The smile of a child you had to bury
And I will never forget him
Or your steadfast faith
No, I will never forget you now
Six or seven years later
I’m devoid of all faith
I am empty of comfort and
I am weary of waiting
Though I’ve felt nowhere what you have
I see nothing at all
Though I’ve felt nowhere what he did
My eyes are closed