Levi The Poet - Bluer Eyes & The Fall Season lyrics

I told this girl about God while I
Was drunk in her living room
We were talking about love she said
"yeah… I see the love in you"
I’m not saying that it was right
But I do think it’s true –
God uses some pretty foolish things
To get inside of you

We had the most sporadic
Passionate conversation about God
About what ails you
About the hallucinations that I had as a kid
About the family that she always wanted
But never did about the marriage that she
Wanted for her parents
That spilt over into a broken childhood
And fearful relationships
She said, "God! I can’t help it!"
She said, "It’s all that I’ve known"
She said, "All I want is a hand to hold onto"


She said, "And I’m scared of being alone"

And I didn’t tell her it’s alright i
Didn’t tell her it’d be fine
I didn’t try to search for words or answers
To questions that aren’t there to find
I just sat with her inside
The silence of the night
And sparked up another cigarette
And offered her a light
Because sometimes you don’t want the input
– the wrong or right –
You just want someone to zip their lip
And sit with you and sympathize

I think it’s that thought – sitting in
Your car in the cold –
Sharing winter coat pockets with the hand
Of a person you don’t know
And if ever your eyes didn’t lie
I could look into your soul
Cause that sadness all comes out in
The freezing truth of the snow

A good friend once said
"It’s hard to live with the dead
And not end up dead
And especially once you’ve shared
The same bed…" well, mom
I didn’t mean to hurt you – I just left –
But, you can rest assured, I’ve
Got a lot of regrets
And there’s something deeper-seeded that
I’m trying to protect
But I have not found that, yet

I’m returning to the arms of lesser love
"nothing good ever happens after midnight"
God above, she was right!
We packed away your past into boxes
And all of the little foxes
Slipped through my grasp
Singing, "your heart beats so
So fast on top of me!"
Awkwardly, your forward behavior is
Shocking me and I
Wonder if this is meant to last
But, I found that dead rat in the
Parking lot, stapled it to the wall, singing
"he loves me, he loves me not"
I’m lost! But, if it turns out to
Be a battle not won, but fought
Then I’ll have left you with the scent
Of every hated failure you forgot

Welcome to Albuquerque
Where everybody’s lonely!
Where everybody needs to feel you
Out before it’s homely
"but nobody’s willing to put forth the
Effort to get to know me!"
I’m learning to allow things
To just happen slowly
But I just want somebody here to hold me
"All your words run together"

But, you know how we get in the winter -
Once all of the leaves start falling
Falling off of all of the trees
(I swear you can see their
Colors changing in me)
We strip bare like them, there
And if anybody cared they could see
We’re all stripped cold down to our souls
We’re vulnerable and lonely

O! If I could, I would walk away from myself!
But, I’ve lost all worth in
The eyes of everybody else
– and your eyes are bluer than any I’ve seen
And your bluer eyes have
Found me completely wanting:
"Hey, if you fall any deeper
Could you fall into me?"
(Honestly, there’s not a lot
Of honesty beneath
Thin pieces of clothing between
You and) well, you’ve see the best of me
The worst is yet to come (But when I come
You’ll find your monsters penetrating
Deep inside and in between
The innocence you stole
And the tip of my tongue)
"Help me find my body – I’ve
Lost it in your hands
But my worth cannot be measured in your eyes
(because they’re dead) "
And if you magnify that death
Well that is your eyes, and
Such beautifully blue eyes are so sad inside
And if you magnify that sadness
Well that is your life
(How can someone so dead be
Such a beautiful blue outside?)

Well, Merry Christmas
Darling! I wrote to tell you that
That concrete factory turns into a
City of lights at night
(and if you wait for it
Just wait for it – you can watch it happen
Right after the sun sets out of the sky)
I pray earnestly in the
Mornings, but at night
My sight blurs as black as
Your eyes did the last
Time I tried to tell you I loved you
And that I was happy that you were mine

(I don’t tell you so soon)
But I haven’t been kissed in so long
And this night altered the very course we
Walk on, and five years later
I’m still singing those songs
Listenin’ to Isis! Well, it became my theme
Song for life because
Life didn’t used to be like this!
I write to stay alive! And December 25th
2005 is the day that I died
(started taping back my eyelids)
Pumping my lungs with fake air and good
Highs and absorbing you night after night
Smile like I believe you when you tell
Me I’m priceless – but you lie
I can see it in your eyes
I can see what you’re thinking as you pour
Me another shot of whiskey – keep drinking
(There you go girl, it’s fine
I can buy your love for $1495)

But i wept red! i wept red for you!

I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING! And now
I’ve got letters marked "Virginia"
Written on loose leaf sheets
Lengthy paragraphs from
My mother, written in red ink
About how she’s so proud of me – her
Little bird with her big wings –
- her clipped wings – her newspaper
Clippings with pictures of butterflies
Pretty things
That she’s been pasting to her journals to
Remind her that she’s not beyond saving
"Don’t be the gold ring in the pig’s snout
And be sure to write if you ever
Need us to help you out"

I put this journal away
For so long, and tried to wrap
My head around those years
Those eggshells that I stomped on
"Let’s get something perfectly clear…"
There’s nothing left to uncover – there’s
Nothing left to bury here"

I write to stay alive
Lust without love is brutality personified
"Whatever you were looking for at that
Point and time in your life
Was never me, and you were never mine"

See, it’s getting warmer back home, and I
Know you’re getting colder all alone
But, I can’t figure out if
I’m lonelier when you’re here
Or when I’m on my own
It’s amazing how quickly a beating
Heart can turn to stone
And out of the mouth, it’s overflow becomes
Well, what overflow? You know?

But now those years pass by as quickly
As the pages I flip through
And I’ll always deny it, but
Every now and then, i miss you
"No one’s eyes speak to me like yours do"
I don’t want the wrongs or rights
I used to adore you… now
It’s all I can do to forgive you

So September sometime, two thousand and
Nine, this girl and I
We drank a little wine
And talked a lot about life
And she said, "See, last July
I finished this diary of mine –
And I planned to keep all
Of it locked up behind closed doors
But, I don’t know anymore
I just don’t want to bear this alone anymore
Could I tell you what’s on my mind?"

It was a passionate conversation
A sporadic conversation
A don’t-interrupt-and-I’ll-try-to-tell
You-what happened conversation
A look-I don’t-want-the-answers conversation
It was a secret
I’m-gonna take-my-chances conversation

And I didn’t tell her not to cry
I didn’t tell her it’d be fine
I didn’t search for words to remedy
The pains she kept inside
I just sat with her
Decided it was better to be
Quiet while she tried
To fight the silhouettes I see still clinging
To her heart against the light
And that’s alright
Each word lifts it’s burden and flies away
With the smoke into the night

Sometimes, you just want somebody
To be silent

That little brown book carries
A lot of weight
I regurgitated my heart to those pages
And to me
They reverberate through time and space

It is what it is it is what it was
Words are what remain"