Levi The Poet - Ms. Lashe lyrics
[Levi The Poet - Ms. Lashe lyrics]
The other day I saw this
Teddy bear with a smile
Do you still call me "Teddy
Bear" from up there
Cause, I can still see you smiling
God, I would love to see that smile, and
God, I am a little bit jealous of you
Because I know you get to
I try to pray, every day, for her family
But sometimes
(maybe even most of the time) I forget to
My little sister still cries
So much sometimes
When she thinks about how much she misses you
And I'm a little bit jealous of that too
You know?
Cause, I try so hard to lose all control
And become as emotionally
Unstable as possible
So that I can feel like I'm feeling release
I remember the day I deleted
Your name from my phone
It was hard, and I tried so hard not to cry
But, I kept on accidentally calling you
Too many times after you died
Cause, I missed you, and in some
Unbelieving corner of my mind
I thought that you might be home
And I cannot believe that this is happening
You know it's things like this
That make me doubt God
But, I know that you never did
When I whispered him to you
My God, what am I supposed to do?
I don't think you doubted him for a moment
And if only we all had that faith
But, I know so many of your friends
That went straight to the bottle
To take the pain away - AND
As i take another swallow
We are all collectively the same -
I've got to keep myself
Inside this drunken state
To make sure I remember your name
When all other feeling floats away
The one thing that's haunting
The one thing that's haunting me
Are your daddy's eyes
Do you remember standing outside
Of your sister's apartment?
It was cold and it was nighttime
And it was raining pretty hard:
The perfect cliche for a first
Kiss in the dark!
FLASH BACK to me standing outside
Of your hospital door!
Your daddy grabbed me by the
Shoulder - said, "Son, she loved you!
And she missed you so much more than you know
And there's no going back now
Are you sure that you want this to be
The last memory that you have of her?"
The one thing that's haunting
The one thing that's haunting
Is your daddy's smile
And the way that I still saw
The pain in his eyes
When I cried on his shoulder the same way
That you used to cry on mine
Said, "I may not be strong
Enough to let you go
But, I'm sure not so weak as to
Let you go without saying goodbye"
Is this really goodbye?
The one thing that's encouraging
The one thing that still gives me
Strength are your daddy's eyes
And the way that he maintained composure
While the rest of us broke down and cried
How do you do that?
He said, "Always remember her life"
So I will write my cheesy songs
That you said you always liked
And I will live to radiate the life
That poured out from your insides
And I will try to smile the way you smiled
You beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful beautiful child
And if ever I forget
I know that you loved me all the while
I saw a teddy bear the other day
And it reminded me of you -
O the end is heaven, and I know you are safe
And I can't wait to get to see you
Teddy bear with a smile
Do you still call me "Teddy
Bear" from up there
Cause, I can still see you smiling
God, I would love to see that smile, and
God, I am a little bit jealous of you
Because I know you get to
I try to pray, every day, for her family
But sometimes
(maybe even most of the time) I forget to
My little sister still cries
So much sometimes
When she thinks about how much she misses you
And I'm a little bit jealous of that too
You know?
Cause, I try so hard to lose all control
And become as emotionally
Unstable as possible
So that I can feel like I'm feeling release
I remember the day I deleted
Your name from my phone
It was hard, and I tried so hard not to cry
But, I kept on accidentally calling you
Too many times after you died
Cause, I missed you, and in some
Unbelieving corner of my mind
I thought that you might be home
And I cannot believe that this is happening
You know it's things like this
That make me doubt God
But, I know that you never did
When I whispered him to you
My God, what am I supposed to do?
I don't think you doubted him for a moment
And if only we all had that faith
But, I know so many of your friends
That went straight to the bottle
To take the pain away - AND
As i take another swallow
We are all collectively the same -
I've got to keep myself
Inside this drunken state
To make sure I remember your name
When all other feeling floats away
The one thing that's haunting
The one thing that's haunting me
Are your daddy's eyes
Do you remember standing outside
Of your sister's apartment?
It was cold and it was nighttime
And it was raining pretty hard:
The perfect cliche for a first
Kiss in the dark!
FLASH BACK to me standing outside
Of your hospital door!
Your daddy grabbed me by the
Shoulder - said, "Son, she loved you!
And she missed you so much more than you know
And there's no going back now
Are you sure that you want this to be
The last memory that you have of her?"
The one thing that's haunting
The one thing that's haunting
Is your daddy's smile
And the way that I still saw
The pain in his eyes
When I cried on his shoulder the same way
That you used to cry on mine
Said, "I may not be strong
Enough to let you go
But, I'm sure not so weak as to
Let you go without saying goodbye"
Is this really goodbye?
The one thing that's encouraging
The one thing that still gives me
Strength are your daddy's eyes
And the way that he maintained composure
While the rest of us broke down and cried
How do you do that?
He said, "Always remember her life"
So I will write my cheesy songs
That you said you always liked
And I will live to radiate the life
That poured out from your insides
And I will try to smile the way you smiled
You beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful beautiful child
And if ever I forget
I know that you loved me all the while
I saw a teddy bear the other day
And it reminded me of you -
O the end is heaven, and I know you are safe
And I can't wait to get to see you