Lily Kershaw - Depreshmode lyrics

I've been looking for my own personal Jesus
Something I could believe in
A God of my understanding
A soft place for landing
Is there anybody out there
Who can tell me where we go
And why I am scared

Is there an action to break this curse
And free me while I'm still here on earth
Cause I've been living in mourning
I can't make it go away
Don't know how long this time it'll stay
Is the laughing a warning?
Is the laughing a warning?

I've seen all sides of my demons
Shadow work takes believing
One sits in the corner and says sadly
Go on do it
I love you madly

But in that action lies a curse
And I know I'd miss the Earth
But it Just keeps on nagging
I can't make it go away
Don't know how long this time it'll stay
It just keeps on laughing
It just keeps on laughing

Saw the finest minds of my generation
Get high on their devastation
Watched the darkness close in slowly
Now they sleep walk past me

And in that action lies the end
God I wish I had a friend
But I know they're all sleeping
And I can't make it go away
Don't know how long this time it'll stay
It just keeps on laughing
Do you hear the laughing?