Lily Talmers - The Push and Pull of It lyrics

I keep staring at this photograph
Its jagged tips that leave me here
To think of how you’re gone
They always bring me back again
To lie within myself
And ain’t it true we play pretend?
Ain’t it true we let them
Sell us groceries and fineries
And shining bright philosophies of life?

Remember when your sister said you’d
Tried to kill yourself and when I heard
I nearly flew to Michigan right then
But it was just a false alarm
The New Yеar rolled in heavy heartеd
Remember how you cried inside the
Car parked into your driveway?
Remember how you told me that I hadn’t even
Tried to save the last of it?
You raised your fist
I wish you would’ve held it in that time

’Cause I don’t mind the push and pull of it
I’m just fine to play pretend
Thinking we could manage not to speak again
Mhmm

And so, it was that night
Set in at different times, that fall
At some sweet hour
Everything would turn to black
And I’d ask myself if this whole
Mess was even worth my time (mm-mm)
Remember how we’d argue over Jesus Christ?
Well, we probably should’ve opted for
Some other thing instead
’Cause I never quite forgave you for
The awful things you said (mm-mm)

I never minded the letting go of it
I was fine to play pretend
Thinking we could manage not to speak again
Mhmm

Now you say I have a careless heart
And that I didn’t understand a
Single thing I did
I used to think that second part
Was truer than it is (mm-mm)
Remember how much time we wasted
Hating things that moved us?
Remember how I photographed you
Hanging by a thread, then up the phone?
You know I loved you
Though I never sought to mean that as I did
But still, I do