Locksmith, Jarell Perry - Imperfect lyrics

I'm parked in front of this clinic
Been waiting for 40 minutes
The girl that I'm with is in it
And recently been admitted
I play it cool but I'm sick to
My stomach knowing we did it
Sometimes I just wish she hadn't
Though I never admit it
I get a text from my dude
Telling me to come and kick it
I'm passing time as I rhyme from
The driver's side of her Civic
Or maybe it was a Sentra
Honestly don't remember
What I do is the guilt and
Religion says I'm a sinner
So how do I keep revealing
Agony that I'm feeling
Trying to keep my composure
She's walking out of the building
Told her I was a chauffeur
Anyways I'd be willing
To take her along at six
Thirty I got some dealing
And I know she thinks I'm weak
And she's sucking in her teeth
Like how can you leave me now when
You promised to stay and sleep?
And I feel like I'm a thief
Because I'm overwhelmed with this grief
I've stolen her innocence and sold
It back to her cheap and I feel disgust too
That it can be us two
It's happily ever after
That chapter is just through
And I'm chilling with my partners
We looking for what's new
That's when I finally realized that
Men can be sluts too
And there's no way to divert it
I know my soul is perverted
I pollinated this flower
Then ripped it out of the surface
Over watered the roots and the truth
As I need some purpose
Lord knows I'm not perfect

So where do we go? Don't wait for me now
Don't wait for me now

I know she's worth it
But, I ain't perfect, no
So don't wait for me now
Because I'll never be perfect

And I've been a liar, I've been a cheater
I'd rather sleep with a stranger than
Be a man and leave her
I'd rather sleep with the shame
Than not appease her
Plus I know she's easily please
D so I'd rather mislead her
We exorcising our demons
And it's like our break-ups
And make-ups becoming seamless
And I say I love her sometimes
But do I mean it? And it's like we're only
Together out of convenience
And I remember my mother
Was always teaching me
Said every time I fuck a girl
I lose another piece of me
Especially in this industry women
Come at you frequently
You gonna have to prove you're better
Than what you seem to be
And I said I'd listen
But, I feel like something's missing
And I thought that my admission
To guilt was my petition
Even though they say it's wrong
We feel it's the right decision
How do we raise child in
These fucked up conditions?
And we can barely eat or sleep still
I try to comfort her
Tell her we need to keep still
She said a part of you had grown inside of me
Now that part is dead so how do
You think that makes me feel?
I guess I feel responsible
I guess this really is more
Than just some obstacle
But, if you still can't forgive
Me than it's worthless
Lord knows I'm not perfect

Sneaking up her mama's stairs
Trying to avoid her mama's stares
And I'm thinking like does her mama care?
Then I realize the procedure her
And her mama shared
Drama stares you in the face
And that could sever time
I had to sacrifice us so I could better mine
Then I asked you what was wrong
You told me nevermind
And right then I realized that
It was never mine