Locksmith, Olamide Faison - Jaded lyrics

The basic premise of innocent dreams falling
Insecurities loom in this rented room
That I stall in the backlash of a back flash
Is the back draft from the cold chill that I
Feel whenever they call him
Exhausting, but it cost him to be season
The small sacrifices in vices
That once teased him
The jealously of a region
That's got me leaving
I'm caught in between my dreams and
My father at home breathing
Am I too diluted and lucid to notice
That my dad is really sick
But he's lying so I can focus
And foreign to foreign parents
Apparently I was done
He’d rather lie to my face than
The fear of stressing his son
I know, but it's unsettling to me
How do I repay the man
That's done everything for me
How do I replay the plan
Without forgetting what I'm getting
I'm letting you know now
You mean everything to me

You can say what you want
Believe in what is told
See people come and go
So time is never froze
The life I live is mine
My thoughts, my mind control
So read the story told if I die a jaded soul

If I'm selfish then let me selfishly
Learn that for myself
See what you fail to see is by you judging
You nudging me even further
Like murder in other words
You niggas are not helping me
And I'm looking at your intentions
If you a hater, your actions are an extension
If I forgive you, I'm giving you interest
To abuse our friendship and that's
Only curing the symptoms
So when it gets what I don't feel
Then I rebuild fusades
Your jealously is what's telling me
Somethings odd
How do I intrust my trust with
A person that's so obtuse
They'd rather give an excuse than
Just admit where they flawed
So I applaud you what's plausible
But integrity is key
How do you glorify yourself
That's unsettling to me
How do you sort a lie
But fortify a portion I supplied i'm jaded
But I survive and that's everything to me

You can say what you want
Believe in what is told
See people come and go
So time is never froze
The life I live is mine
My thoughts, my mind control
So read the story told if I die a jaded soul

Yeahh die a jaded soulllll
If I die a jaded soul ohhh
If I die a jaded soul ohhhh
If I die a jaded soul ohh, ooh
If I die a jaded

Now can you picture what I've painted
If I disclose my soul, could you sustain it
If I explained that my aim
Is more than just fame
Would you write me off as insane
Or just tainted by entertainment
I'm taming my lower self
No one else can see the aided
I used to think that my music is saving
But, I guess my inner hail is
What prevails until I'm shaded
For now I'm just jaded