Machine Gun Kelly - The Return lyrics

And they say they know me
Get the fuck outta here
Only God knows what I've been through, man
So if you wanna talk
Get your facts straight first
And if you really wanna know
Let me ask you something

Have you ever walked in the shoes of a giant?
Or had to fill the position of a
Boss before you were even a client?
It's no wonder growing up under
The roof of a tyrant
That I would be the poster boy for defiance
Now I'm the voice of the silence
Fuck being quiet I've seen twenty
Years worth of violence i'm tired
It's a burden for me to open my eyelids
Not an undercover cop but it's safe
To say that I'm wired
I can't even get a grip
On my life with pliers
I'm fucked up in the head
Close my eyes cause I see
Demons around my bed
So depressed, open them up hoping I'm dead
Thought the fame would make it better
But it only fucked me over
Never used to touch a bottle
Now I'm hardly ever sober
People want to be my friend
But where the fuck were y'all when I was ten
Eleven or twelve getting bullied and
Beat up in the gym?
I couldn't never get a girl
Now all the sudden I'm the man
Students try to get back cool with me again
Fuck 'em all
Because guess where they're gon' be
When my record stops playing?
Gone with the wind
Off in the record shop saying
That "Kells fell off"
I knew it would happen, stop hating
Cause a month ago you was
All over my jock saying
That I'm "that mu'fucker"
But now I'm whack, mu'fucker?
Opinions change
But you cannot change facts mu'fucker
If you want bullet points then
Call me a gat mu'fucker
I'll lay my whole life out
Like a mat mu'fucker
Man, I've experienced some things that
Would stop you from eating
My schizophrenic cousin tried to end
My life while I'm sleepin
My bummy uncle wanna call now
That he sees me succeeding
My momma left me for a teacher
Lost my dad to the preaching
Half my friends are buried six feet
All the rest in the precinct
Literally watched my Grandmother
Die from Diabetes
I guess my prayers were answered when my
Aunt got Cancer and beat it
Now I want to get her out a job
Give her the garden of Eden
I did a lot of bad shit, God got even
But for the price I had to pay
I wish I'd stopped breathing
My girl sat in the bathtub
Eight hours bleeding
Hearing the doctor tell us our
Child's heart stopped beating
Fuck a million
I wouldn't take a dollar for a life
But I will do what's in my heart
And trade this dollar for a mic
I wrote this song in hopes that it
Could help someone get through the night
With no intentions of getting paid
I'm just doing what is right
I do it for the fans, no, the real fans
Who stuck with me through the
Storm cause they understand
That there's a genuine pain behind
The words I'm saying and they embrace me
So I thank y'all for staying ain't it crazy
That passion is my achilles heel?
Either that or keeping it way too real
But they don't know how it feels
To feed off the energy of a crowd
Step on stage and they get loud
Dad, I'm gonna make you proud
I know we don't speak right now but I think
Turning new leaves is what we need right now
I love you and you may not see right now
But I'm begging for forgiveness
I'm on my knees right now
You saw your son as a dropout
Stuck around when I ran
Saw your son as a felon
Now see your son as a man
See your son be a father
To a beautiful child
Or just see your son Dad, see me smile
Who would have thought what started at
The bottom would someday grow?
From three people in the crowd, unpaid shows
Six people in the room, one meal a day
Another opening act where no
One knows my name
Saw the demos that I passed
Out laying on the ground
Saw the rappers I befriended copying my style
Saw opportunities pass while these
Fakes got rich
Now I can't stop speeding like
My breaks ain't shit
For six months I went through hell and back
Right at the height of my success all of
The sudden doctors said I couldn't rap
I had a polyp on my vocal chords
Left with a choice
Stop now or possibly lose my voice
But I woke up and recorded every
Morning till my throat swole shut
Coughed blood after every show because
It hurt that much
I went weeks without even saying
A word to myself
No health insurance so doctor bills
Piled on the shelf
But for my daughter and my fam
And every single fan i pushed through it
Now I'm back for y'all again
As for my competition
This is the beginning of the end
But right now this is my return, amen kells

And they say they know me
Get the fuck outta here