Mad Caddies - Whatcha Gonna Do lyrics

Layin' awake again and I
Don't know what's happening
I'm setting sail on unknown seas
And I'm haunted by insecurities
I'm standing on the edge of dream
Colliding with the light of
This real life scene
And I don't feel a thing until the pain comes
And when it's all said and done
Would I just cut and run
Sometimes I'm so numb I don't know
If it happened tonight would
I stand and fight or would I just let go

Whatcha gonna do when it's on you boy
Whatcha gonna say when it's no no more
Whatcha really gonna do when
It's all through boy
Whatcha gonna say when it's over now

Maybe it's the time of the year
But I don't feel my soul shine
Locked up inside and floating
On the cheap wine

But there's a smell in the air
And I swear something's there
Blowing in on a California night
So if it's all gone and I can't go on
Well I'm sure as hell not ready to die