Margaret Atwood - The Handmaid's Tale pg 248 lyrics

"I thought it might be the end
For me or back to the Center
And the attentions of Aunt Lydia
And her steel cable she enjoyed that
You know she pretended to do all that
Love-the-sinner, hate-the-sin stuff
But she enjoyed it
I did consider offing myself
And maybe I would have if there'd been any
Way but they had two of them
In the back of the van with me
Watching me like
A hawk didn't say a hell of a lot
Just sat and watched me in that walleyed way
They have so it was no go
"We didn't end up at the Center though
We went somewhere else i won't
Go into what happened
After that i'd rather not talk about it
All I can say is they didn't leave any marks
"When that was over they showed me
A movie know what it was
About? It was about life in
The Colonies in the Colonies
They spend their time cleaning up
They're very clean-minded these days
Sometimes it's just bodies
After a battle the ones in
City ghettos are the worst
They're left around longer
They get rottener this bunch
Doesn't like dead bodies lying around
They're afraid of a plague or
Something so the women in
The Colonies there do the burning the
Other Colonies are worse, though
The toxic dumps and the radiation spills
They figure you've got three
Years maximum, at those
Before your nose falls off and
Your skin pulls away like rubber gloves they
Don't bother to feed you much, or
Give you protective clothing or anything
It's cheaper not to anyway
They're mostly people they
Want to get rid of they say
There're other Colonies, not so bad
Where they do agriculture: cotton and
Tomatoes and all that but
Those weren't the ones they showed
Me the movie about "It's old women I bet
You've been wondering why
You haven't seen too many of those
Around anymore and Handmaids who've
Screwed up their
Three chances, and incorrigibles
Like me discards, all of us
They're sterile, of course if they aren't
That way to begin with, they
Are after they've been there for
A while when they're unsure
They do a little operation on you
So there won't be any
Mistakes i'd say it's about a
Quarter men in the Colonies
Too not all of those Gender Traitors
End up on the Wall