Mason DeathBlade - Lost lyrics

Here I am, staring out the window
As I start to Reminisce
Thinking about my life
Was gonna ask you to be my wife
That night coming into a new Day
I had gave you a promise ring i be your king
You would-a been my queen
Everyone said we were stuck in a dream
To young to think about marriage
We were only teens but that didn’t
Matter I wanted you forever
But, I remember when you lost feelings
For me it was March 16th we had just
Left the fair spent all day together
But that night you said it wasn’t me it was
You I knew then I had to leave

I started losing all meaning to life
Hoping I’d never grab a knife

But, im screaming why why God
Why’d he have to die hit by cardiac arrest
Now my Uncle can’t meet my kids
He went to Heaven July 31st
It killed me seeing him in that hearse
Thought my whole life had been cursed
Because I lost you first then I lost him

So I swore to God this
Would never happen again don’t wanna die
Just wanna rhyme get my story out
Because I been in a drought
At a lost for words in this time of hurts
Screaming why God
Why does this keep happen to me
Let me be free

Why God why does this keep happen to me
Please Let me be free