Mau - APOLOGIES CONFESSION lyrics

Yeah and thats how it started
I remember I just came home and
She sent me a text
And while reading this text I could feel that
She is crying, hopeless, lonely
Thats how she was feeling
She thought that I was cheating i wasn't

I may have done some fucked up things in my
Life but cheating wouldn't even
Come in the category
But, I want to apologize even though
I had no act on cheating

Would you forgive me if i told you
That I'm in a reinvention to
Better my self then what I was
Creating tensions and problems
That tore us and stopped us from extending
Pretending like everything was ok

But, I was blind
You opened my eyes so many times
But, I just kept em closed and showed
That you didn’t really meant shit
Until I loosed you
Choose you as a person you as a
Person to throw my anger on
Pushed you off this cliff
But you kept hanging on

You send me a text saying that I need help
Debating on should I reply
Cause you’ll be mad at yourself
Mad at what I left was nothing more than
A sorrow and sorry to start again
Tryna make you come back in my life
Not as a wife but as a friend

Good friend who never hated me
For what I did before praise on our future
In future I will not accuse
Her for the after effect
If this what it takes for me to get yah
Matter fact i'll never forget you

But, I will lead you in every way possible
Direct you but never I am an obstacle

And the snapbacks and flashbacks
Ain't been the same since you left
Your voice is rotating around my
Head like I’m deaf

All I hear is those three words
When you use to say em
All I feel is your arm around
When you use to lay em
And All I feel is what you tell
Me you feel is not real
But yet you still try to
Approve me until the point
I'm paranoid, deployed in suicidal thoughts
Dreams of us
But these nightmares that I caught
Im paranoid devoted to you I try to avoid