Miles Canady - 9:58 PM lyrics

Yeah i remember I would just go
On YouTube and listen
To the loop of this for hours on end

Can't be bothered to think of opening lines
Hard to think straight when you
Know it's your time
And your attention's fixed on how
Your life's showing the signs
And you just wanna get your thoughts out
You're not focused on rhymes
Got school in the morning
I'm supposed to be sleeping
I'm too motivated to and
My anxiety's tweaking
Way too many thoughts at once
Got me feeling surrounded
Usually, I'd get doubtful
But I know that's dumb-sounding
How could I doubt myself when
These people believe in me?
I'm getting to know the good person
That they see in me
Other kids in the class wouldn't leave him be
Or just talk to him and
Then at him in secrecy
Got to know himself a little
And he ran with it
Realized it was okay to be so damn timid
Put it all in song
Now he's finna advance with it
Even if the ones around him don't
Follow his plans with him
Trying to find myself cost me a boyfriend
That's tough saw the bad that I was causing
Things were running amuck
I'm out the equation
And now he's happier than he was
That's what I wanted
Hope he doesn't think I left just because
Now I'm trying to figure
Things out for myself
How to kill off the self-blame
And doubt that I felt
Found my wings, I'm just learning how to fly
So let me spread them
They gon' say I'm taking too much room
Talk? Imma let em
Thinking back to when Cudi stopped
Me from doing something stupid
I almost jumped
Thank God I wasn't bold enough to do it
Him, T, and Bino made me feel less alone
Like I'm not the only weird
Black kid they've ever known
Felt validated and represented for once
Happy even though I would still
Sit alone at lunch
I was listening to Good Kid
MAAd city on the bus
Black Boy Fly on repeat when
I felt like giving up
The music was there when I thought
No one cared for me
Now I wanna be here for you
Like it was there for me
First I gotta kill these thoughts of
What I'm scared to see
So I can be the person I prepare to be
Losing track of the bars
Documenting this moment
Now it's 10: 40 PM, losing time to my focus
Got a DM from Hospey
That just made me remember
We gotta talk about our plans
To take over November

You'll find out what I mean later (laughs)
This shit sounds beautiful yeah
And we out