Mimic, Sewerperson - Standby lyrics

I'ma go and leave the house again
I got my backbone watch the ground shatter
Glass when I walk up on people only call me
When there's something always wrong
I see distant memories creepin'
When I pass by hope it's the last time
Stay connected like it's landline
Watch my footing 'cause I'm
Surrounded by landmines never gonna trip
'cause I'm always on standby
I got ice up on my wrist
You know this shit took time
Pills in my system, only reason I would fall
Error in my coding, so I always reinstall
They always try to stop me
But I'm breaking through these walls
Still hopin' for that call

Every night baby, I used to see you
'bout like every night, yeah
Now, I'm like "yeah" are we alright? Damn
I just hold my head and dig
My feet into the sand
Man, I miss my homeland
You look like an angel in this candlelight
Yeah the news said that storm out
West been heading over here
We sit in front of this fire
Waiting for it to appear
While my eyes roll back into me
As she's thumbing through my hair
Exhausting all my energy into the summer air
I swear
I had this in me way before I was aware
She used to feel my arm when I'm in public
'cause I hate when people stare
This aura seeping out of me
Whenever I'm feeling scared
Black clovers covering my books, I'm tainted
I levelled before I was ready, now it's rage
I shoulda waited ripping through my mind
I separate from what I hated
I live in constant fear of
My projection in my basement

Everyday thankful to god that I made it 22
I be mixin' all my pills
And with my liquor too she be fuckin' good
I'm keepin' all the answers inside the coupe
She tell me that she's wasted
I tell her I am too
Markings on her body, she levitate the room
In my mind I tell her that I'll see her soon
I be writing scriptures in these pages
With you know I keep it weighted hated
Only show me love when you're jaded
New beginnings but I'm feeling outdated
Comin' home to see nobody waited
Oblivious is stated