Guardin, moonlet - Oh no lyrics

Why does this seem never ending
I try to be patient
I wake up everyday just trying to escape it
This darkness is lurking don’t
Want to embrace it
I left my sanity dead in the basement
I burn with the demons
I drink till I’m wasted
This life full of color just
Seems to have faded
Though I know my hearts temporarily jaded
And I will be free on the day that I face it

Oh no, oh no, oh no, if I go down this road
I’m gonna die soon and I don’t wanna die soon
Oh why do I, why do I, do I, do I
Do this to my health
It’s like I’m killing myself
I’ve created this hell

Why do I, even try
I swear that I've lost my mind
It's not right
Losing sight of direction objection
I'm losing my pace caught in the storm and
My head's outta place
Grip my hand and we can make it out alive
Trust my integrity it's eating me inside
They say honesty is crucial to survive
But I know a couple people
Comfortably living a lie
So why do I feel so uninviting
Head vs heart and they keep on fighting
Lost my mind but I just keep writing
Lock my door in my bed I'll be hiding
(ooo ooo ooo, oh no, oh why)

Oh no, oh no, oh no, if I go down this road
I’m gonna die soon and I don’t wanna die soon
Oh why do I, why do I, do I, do I
Do this to my health
It’s like I’m killing myself
I’ve created this hell