Mr. Grey, Slaine, Madchild - Lullaby lyrics

All the talent in the world now
I'm stuck with this erratic demon
On my back he got a
Knack for this lavish dreaming
My habit's screaming so loud my
Fucking throat is sore
Look at my lyrics I barely know
What I wrote em for
Anymore I've been peeping game I
Still know the score
I'm no dope I know how to
Walk through an open door
I've been paid I've been
Broke serenaded by ghosts
Loved by the most jaded still hated by most
I ain't come here to make friends
Or chat with you bitches
Trynna keep beating the system
Stacking actual bitches
Gotta patch up for smashing
This irrational business
Harassing you and acting like an
Asshole what is this
This is a homicidal lovе letter
This is the typе of shit that
I do that nobody does better
This is defiance at it's finest
I have beat the odds
I fought the tyrants with my violence
Now I feast with gods

If I had one less song to sing
Then I'd tell you everything
Whether I was wrong or right
This is the lullaby that is my life

You can't run forever in the palm of the past
Songs of a siren keep the devil off track
Shoulders can't hold no more living
For the last laugh
The soldier never says no to the warpath
I'm right here last man standing
When the smoke clears
Hope steers while dreams start
Turning into nightmares
Aware of the cold years
Shredding my soul's tears so I provoke this
You be out of focus i know this
It's a lesson and a curse
Confession and a verse
Progression in reverse
How callous that I've become
Staring at the sun
Split custody black hole supernova outcome
Call on a hurricane
Stuck with a pack of pain
Catastrophic migraine running in the rain
I may have grown cold but
The fire will never die
A product of my past life
Looking for the light

If I had one less song to sing
Then I'd tell you everything
Whether I was wrong or right
This is the lullaby that is my life

Yeah I'm sane i've been to hell and back
Back when shit was hella whack
Acting like I didn't even rap (Damn)
What the hell was that
Walking round a bunch of
Gangsters with big egos
Backwards like the word live
Backwards is evil (Damn)
I realized I turned into an asshole
My castle did crumble
Now I'm back to just raps and being humble
I can't believe the past went so
Fast when I was younger
I wish I could go back
With this absolute hunger
But, I don't have a time machine
Now my time's precious
And I'm spending all my time
Trynna climb my mind stresses
On the things I coulda been they shoulda been
I'mma keep trying (okay)
It's now or never and I
Finally woke the sleeping giant
At least I think I did
I think I can ain't good enough
I have to own it and stop
Thinking what I coulda done (That's right)
I have to reach inside myself
And find my inner beast
And make it to the top the only
Way that I'll have inner peace

If I had one less song to sing
Then I'd tell you everything
Whether I was wrong or right
This is the lullaby that is my life