MUN ZAY - By My Lonesome lyrics
[MUN ZAY - By My Lonesome lyrics]
By my lonesome, uh I take meds till it’s over
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn
By my lonesome oh, I take drugs by my lonely
Please don’t judge you don’t know me
Everyday feel likе the same
I don’t evеn know why I’m still hoping
Why I’m still hoping, maybe I’m chosen
Maybe it’s Gods will
Can’t forgive for what he did
I don’t trust God still, oh no
I know that I’ll work it out
That’s for Hell or Heaven to figure out
I’ve got no feelings now, all
Of them broken down, i’m out of town
Hell or Heaven? That is the question
That I keep wondering
Lose all these bad habit's in my body
Or eternal suffering
Maybe don’t make decisions when you high
I done learned that the hard way
I keep pumping out music
I just do what my heart says
I'm just tryna get by
Keep doing what your job says
Keep doing what your family want
It's hard all my demons hunt
They look for me, yeah they search for me
I need my stomach pumped with the urgency
Pick my brain ain't no surgery
I'm so lost but you found me
You keep the bad vibes from round me
Hopefully, you don't leave me
Then again I'd leave me
Second-guessing, I'm high clearly, oh
By my lonesome, uh I take meds till it’s over
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn
I keep dropping out all these songs
I know that they still can't right wrongs
But that's okay now, I'm in
My grave now, already digged, oh
Already dug
Sipping on drugs smoking on syrup
High off my ass on the
Last bar, finish in increments
Rapping ain't that hard so you say
This shit getting difficult almost every day
Imma go on record and say I haven't recorded
One time I tried but mission aborted
I'll try again watch me lie again
I ain't innocent maybe in a sense
Another dimension
Myself an extension, built up with tension
I forgot to mention
Same me in the same year
When was the last I made that clear?
I was prolly sipping Everclear
Vision foggy demons near
Let me get off this chair
Imma get em outa here
Imma put em in a vault
Throw the key in the ocean
I got plans for my future, hopefully
You'll be in it
I don't know how, I don't know where
But hopefully you'll be next to me
I'm addicted to you like ecstasy
Lemme refrain from that, let me dial it back
All that lovey dovey, I'm
Not okay with that
I remember one time I hated that
Now I wanna spend every day with that
Oh times have changed no, I'm not the same
Don't know if this for better
I cannot sweat her
I only just met her let's just say this year
But back to reality
Head up in the clouds with
A sense of morality
Young but wise so please don't challenge me
A rude awakening is what you gonna see
A living legend is what I'm gonna be
I'm not self-absorbed, I'm just feeling me
Being myself is my greatest enemy, oh
I'm still balling, I'm still balling
Just on a different court
If I gotta go out early
That's my last resort
Imma make it till I'm thirty and
Then I'll pass the torch
Just remember not to blow out the light
Don't be scared, only one of my demons bite
But he's locked away, from the light
Of day, left to decay, left to rot
It ain't in my spot no more at least
Yeah it needs a leash sometimes it feeds
Sometimes I bleed, in those rare moments
Of my human form
I gotta do better yeah I must reform, oh
By my lonesome, uh I take meds till it’s over
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn
By my lonesome oh, I take drugs by my lonely
Please don’t judge you don’t know me
Everyday feel likе the same
I don’t evеn know why I’m still hoping
Why I’m still hoping, maybe I’m chosen
Maybe it’s Gods will
Can’t forgive for what he did
I don’t trust God still, oh no
I know that I’ll work it out
That’s for Hell or Heaven to figure out
I’ve got no feelings now, all
Of them broken down, i’m out of town
Hell or Heaven? That is the question
That I keep wondering
Lose all these bad habit's in my body
Or eternal suffering
Maybe don’t make decisions when you high
I done learned that the hard way
I keep pumping out music
I just do what my heart says
I'm just tryna get by
Keep doing what your job says
Keep doing what your family want
It's hard all my demons hunt
They look for me, yeah they search for me
I need my stomach pumped with the urgency
Pick my brain ain't no surgery
I'm so lost but you found me
You keep the bad vibes from round me
Hopefully, you don't leave me
Then again I'd leave me
Second-guessing, I'm high clearly, oh
By my lonesome, uh I take meds till it’s over
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn
I keep dropping out all these songs
I know that they still can't right wrongs
But that's okay now, I'm in
My grave now, already digged, oh
Already dug
Sipping on drugs smoking on syrup
High off my ass on the
Last bar, finish in increments
Rapping ain't that hard so you say
This shit getting difficult almost every day
Imma go on record and say I haven't recorded
One time I tried but mission aborted
I'll try again watch me lie again
I ain't innocent maybe in a sense
Another dimension
Myself an extension, built up with tension
I forgot to mention
Same me in the same year
When was the last I made that clear?
I was prolly sipping Everclear
Vision foggy demons near
Let me get off this chair
Imma get em outa here
Imma put em in a vault
Throw the key in the ocean
I got plans for my future, hopefully
You'll be in it
I don't know how, I don't know where
But hopefully you'll be next to me
I'm addicted to you like ecstasy
Lemme refrain from that, let me dial it back
All that lovey dovey, I'm
Not okay with that
I remember one time I hated that
Now I wanna spend every day with that
Oh times have changed no, I'm not the same
Don't know if this for better
I cannot sweat her
I only just met her let's just say this year
But back to reality
Head up in the clouds with
A sense of morality
Young but wise so please don't challenge me
A rude awakening is what you gonna see
A living legend is what I'm gonna be
I'm not self-absorbed, I'm just feeling me
Being myself is my greatest enemy, oh
I'm still balling, I'm still balling
Just on a different court
If I gotta go out early
That's my last resort
Imma make it till I'm thirty and
Then I'll pass the torch
Just remember not to blow out the light
Don't be scared, only one of my demons bite
But he's locked away, from the light
Of day, left to decay, left to rot
It ain't in my spot no more at least
Yeah it needs a leash sometimes it feeds
Sometimes I bleed, in those rare moments
Of my human form
I gotta do better yeah I must reform, oh
By my lonesome, uh I take meds till it’s over
Devil still standing on my shoulder
"I’m doing fine" yeah that’s what I told her
Uh balling till my last quarter
Money-hungry yeah I got a disorder
I cannot change, cannot control it
Off the pills yeah I stay rolling
Had to leave her she was too controlling
But then again, she left me frozen, oh
She left me on open, I ain't
Love her I was just lonely, damn