MUN ZAY - What If lyrics

What if when we said forever
Then we would really be forever
But things don't last forever
I'm just waiting for the end of this chapter

I've been blowing black smoke
Hoping that my throat close
I don't wanna be here no more
But I can't go no, yeah I can't go
I got way too much- i took way too much-
Oh, no, I think I'm going overboard
I think my life is such a bore
I see everybody living it up
All I want is more
My heart crashing to the floor
I can't really love no more
It's just absent, I'm not attached, no
"I got options" I feel attacked, oh
You don't care but It's gone circle back
Woah then you'll see what I mean
I feel dеtached oh, wo ah
I feel detached sincе when did saying
"I love you" become whack
Man, fuck it nice guys we don't get shit
Man, fuck it I'm the
Truth I'm really gifted it's crazy
I've been fighting demons for too long
Last time I fell in love that
Shit was way too strong
Now I'm distant, way too absent
I don't know how to feel
I'm hanging onto loose threads
I think I'm better off dead
But I'm too scared to go i don't wanna go
I need an antidote I feel I'm poisoned
You don't wanna love me
Don't let your heart in
Please forgive my sins, I know I fucked up
I can't luck up
My temptation I really hate it
I'm way too faded thinking bout my exes
My minds a warzone battle of the sexes woah

What if when we said forever
Then we would really be forever
But things don't last forever
I'm just waiting for the end of this chapter

I keep saying this my last song
But I keep on doing wrong
This shit got me pissed, yeah
I keep throwing fit's
Crashing shit, bashing shit
I don't really know whats next
I don't think I miss my ex
But when it's over in the end
I will always miss my ex
I'm stuck in a circle
On a loop no commercial
Stuck in a daze, yeah stuck in a maze, woah
I'm in it for days
Please kill me there is no other way
I'm just drifting now there's
Nothing in my brain
Yeah, people driving me insane
I think I need a vacation, no a staycation
I fall in love too easily
I think I love too desperatley
That's prolly why she stranded me
On the real I feel weak at times
Just a shell of myself
Hiding behind the blinds
I want the world to know whos behing the mic
I think I'm running out of time though
I gotta run this money up
Before these curtains close
I'm feeling like I'll die early
I don't know i don't feel it
But I feel it if it makes sense
Sometimes I feel like I'm living
In the past tense
I don't think that was an accident
I'm reading too hard into it
Hold up wait let's get back to the music
I fall in love quickly
"I don't think you in love with
Me" you might be right-
It's prolly all these drugs in me
Yeah, It prolly is some love in me
Deep down way before all the drugs hit me
But I don't know
I just wanna start a family
Mine ain't perfect so this stuff
Means a lot to me
Ever since I heard the news
I've been feeling bubbly
Laying off the green and laying off the lean
I got to be a better me
For the other half of me