MUN ZAY - Living A Lie lyrics

I think it's better to live a lie
Than die trying to tell the truth
You can take it how you want
But there's no eternal youth
They just washed up reliving
All their glory days, that's the craze
Those were the days sipping muddy water
Fiending Novacaine numb the pain
Over and over again I can't feel a thing
No I don't wanna, yeah I don't wanna

This off-topic
Demons like a mosh pit squshing me
Cushioning, only when I feel your
Presence next to me
But you ain't here so fuck it
Yeah imma keep sipping lean
Pouring up this purplе it ain't purple
It looks more like green
Bussing at thе seams
Drugs in my belly oh shit
I can't take no more drugs galore
I know I said no more
Screaming but I've lied before
Ain't the first time that I did it
Ain't the last time that I'll do it
I talk in contradictions yeah I'm fluent
Better get used to it
I be feeling nauseous but I ain't take shit
Different day but it's always the same shit
I'm sick of it even my own
Family doing that lane switch
I'm used to it I don't even know why
I'm tripping better get used to it
It's gone happen more
Screaming drugs galore
Yeah I want some more
I'm addicted to it, fiending for it
Guess I live a lie
I don't try, try to hide what I got inside
I say sorry, you say sorry
But only one of us is sorry
I just wanna fly away but come back to earth
But once I go I ain't coming
Back I'm leaving with a smirk
Sucidal, lowkey I can manage
Dealing with this damage
Friends don't understand me they always
Ask why I'm so sad i don't show it to em
Catch me on a off day
But that's all youll get
Talking shit, laughing and we joking
Until I stare at the abyss
All my demons there, they invite me in
I don't wanna go I was having fun
Then they say "you can't have
No fun" my anxiety
Is hiding all the greatest parts of me
But I don't really care my depression
Puts me right to sleep
Same song different tune, you
Heard that before, just cut the beat
I don't wanna rap no more this the
Last song you'll get from me