MUN ZAY - Long Overdue lyrics

Long overdue with the pill residue
In my jeans life ain't what everybody says
No happy things
I stand up for an ovation but to
My discern I get no applause
I really came back to finish what I started
I was outsmarted
I remember back in grade school the
Teacher asked was I retarded
I said no bitch are you
That’s what I retorted
It’s funny when faced with anger quick
Sly remarks is where I resorted
I’m still like that please don’t anger
Me my words arе horrid
But enough about me let’s focus
On what’s morе important
I came back two years late, with a big plate
All my demons followed
Along with the pills I swallowed
I get lost in my mind, my thoughts never kind
What’s the opposite of benign
Let’s just say they hostile
Not rolling with the right crowd
Look at me talking about myself
I know I just can’t help it
I mix the good with bad along
With the hearts I melted

They lost faith in me like
How Christ came to be
We look to Christianity to be
The savior of humanity
But in the end, were steady losing our sanity
You can smite me, not like me
Or try to fight me but I got it on my own
There's not many like me
I stop focusing on what could have
Been or what might be
I charge headfirst into battle
What about repercussions
I'm so clear-headed right now I
See my bad decisions
Call it a moment of clarity or God's doing
Listening to beats right now feel
Like my hearts moving
Keep checking messages tryna
Clean up recklessness
I made some enemies tonight don't
Got the will to fight
I'm not used to fright, I might die tonight
Internally not externally let's get it right
Cus I'm a fuck up, a screw-up
Whatever you want me to be
At the end of the day
The truth will set me free
I'm fading away the only
Thing left is "MUNZ"
I'm sposed to be CTB that's
What I claim to be
Cutthroat Boys is the way of life
Filled with pain and strife
I used to take pills I don't
No more I'm done with lies
I'm always changing it feels like
Nine times I've already died
It feels like no matter what I
Do I make people cry
I say yes I say no, peoples true colors show
I fell in love however many
Times I got widows drink my sorrow away hope
This pain don't show
I'm done I've had my fun I just rap
This pain away till the day is done