Noveliss - Calligraphy lyrics

I don't want to dance slow in the rain but
I fall below the heavens with Blu playing
I'm through saying I'm through slaying these
Beats to make ends meet i'm in deep, see
Dreams bought the car but don't pay the fees
The monthlys
I'm checkin' mics word to "3 Thou"
You check to check
But, if I fail to create and make heads nod
We neck to neck
Nevertheless my poetry's deep I never waiver
Even at a loss for words
I always find them on the paper
In search of myself, I get
Lost out in the nature
Too used to putting others before
Me the new danger family first
Slayin' verses I get over focused
I worked too many hours this week
Which takes away from me releasing
These ideas in my head i get overloaded
Weary of moving to certain neighborhoods
'cause of the chosen POTUS
It's how I find myself, in the rhyme chamber
My mind in danger the rise of
This blind anger Im lost
A cesspool of underachieving and
Working jobs and I'm
Tryna' keep the poison out my relationship
They cleansing our cities by gentrifying the
Areas we never made it in
They harvesting our pavement
Concrete plantations and the only
Way you can hope
To make it is work the grave shift
And I can't even manifest myself
On my friends playlist
Cuz' they don't wanna play this
I roam through headphones in search of
A place to stay niche no shade
Never shared a seat on the bus in college
On the way home from road games
Sometimes I think I run from myself
It's such a close race
Sometimes I think I run from myself
It's such a close race

How can I find myself when I can't find you?
So I drop this rhymin' in honor
Of your design in my life
When we meet again we'll share these vibes
Nothing's changed
We'll rock hoodies and sweats just in the sky
This verse is dedicated to my brother
In loving memory of BT, word to mother
If you could see all the
People you brung together in
This tragedy then you would see
Your spirit lives on
That's immortality, dig it
My heart was broken but the wound
Was still open cuz' I
Had lost my best friend to
A bullet without the closure
Its too hard to be sober I'm broken
Beyond repair why they take ya?
Feel like I, failed you as a friend
I couldn't save ya
Even though we took two different
Roads it didn't change us
And our sons will maintain the
Connection that we created
Shit I never learned to grieve I
Tried writing but the times changed
I hope my girl don't smell
This liquor on my breath
I got twisted in the driveway
For the first time I twist the Bombay
It said "Dry Gin" and I was tryna' dry tears
Never much of a drinker them tears used as a
Chaser I was racing down
Memory lane intoxicated
Reminiscent of the hoodies in the
Winter staying chill when
I was broke man you bought me a coat
Shit was real
It was me, you, Ken and Chris, we was all in
Falling asleep in the same clothes
We played the ball in
Life was so simple before we
Found our true callings
You were taylor made for the streets
And I went to college
Remembering "Paid in Full" in 10
Years we didn't have
Matching Benzs because our plates
Were full but now your son gonna' know the
True legacy of my friend
The best shooter in the gym and
A father who loved his kid