NTHN (UK) - Used To This lyrics

Lay in bed alone
Trying to make it through the night
Wake up, check my phone
Same routine, wondering why
It's taking all I have to feel alive
And when I see myself
I'm worried by how much I recognise
'Cause I'm past first times
Past introductions
Doesn't even shock me now
I'm far too accustomed
Previously I always used to
Be so self-destructive but nowadays
It's taking all my effort just to function

I'm not new to this (no)
I'm far too used to this

Lay in bed alone
Trying to make it through the night
Wake up, check my phone
Same routine, wondеring why
It's taking all I have to feel alive
And when I see mysеlf
I'm worried by how much I recognise

I'm not new to this (no)
I'm far too used to this

I'm not new to this i'm used to this
Tell the truth
I've been doing this for years now
Sometimes I don't know if I even feel down
It's like I'm feeling nothing at all
And in a way, I think that bothers me more
'Cause back when I was overthinking
At least I was thinking something
And lately, to be honest
I don't like what I'm becoming
Looking at myself
I'm losing what I used to feel
And though my wounds have healed
I'm left senseless i guess that's just the
Consequence of my defences

I'm not new to this (no)
I'm far too used to this
I'm not new to this (no)
I'm far too used to this