NTHN (UK) - Sustained lyrics

I was used to coping in the wrong ways
Long days trying to get along by myself
Trying to prove that I didn't
Need help with this
As I compromised my health
With my selfishness
Was it shame or was it pride?
The reason why I keep my
Feelings buried deep inside?
The reason why I dealt with
These emotions out of sight
It took me too long to realise
That I had nothing to hide

Because I
I don't wanna feel ashamed anymore
I don't wanna feel to blame anymore
I don't wanna feel the pressure
Like I've gotta be in control
Of everything that I
Say or every single move I make anymore

I'm tired of always trying to
Appear like I'm above this
I've had enough of lying to
The ones that I love
Self-sufficiency was never worth the cost
And I've lost more trying to
Be something that I'm not

I've been quiet for too long
I've been in denial far too long
I've been trying far too hard to keep
My guard up on my own

So catch me when I fall
Convince me I'm enough
Support me through these thoughts that feel
Like all I've ever known