Pak-Man - Summary lyrics

I couldn't say "What did I
Do to deserve this?"
Everything you go through has a purpose
Started back in April '09 coming back to my
Mum's from community service
Cuffs on my wrist
Yeah that can make a man mad
Seeing paramedics try attend to my granddad
Jakes asking me questions
I wasn't one to hear
Too much after my tape dropped
What a wonderful year
Nah I'm being sarcastic
But coming up my dargs smashed it
I fought my own battles cause
Relying on help's sad
Spent a couple months just driving myself mad
Times when I felt bad, angry and stressed out
Had the streets buzzing
Told my mother "Get a next house"
Paranoid, it doesn't help bunning
On an ounce again
Around the same time when I
Shut down Bounce FM
Still I didn't know who was responsible
This ain't a hand ting job
I need a longer tool
Certain bruddas on ends showed
Me who did that
Never heard that name before
Tell me who's Izbach?
Thinking were they lying
Were they kids gassed?
Way before shh got kidnapped
Yeah I did flash round riffraff
Probably wanna stick Pak when I go chitchat
You can hear the realness in my voice akh
Showed certain man love and
They tried exploit that
I never got grabbed, I went back willingly
Stupidly, unconscious of the setup
Are you feeling me?
I went back to state the truth
I've never been a snaky yout
You tried to justify your actions
For a fake excuse
Probably knew what was going on that day
Were you off ends or did you
Lie like a fat snake?
Sat back and watched it
Had my strap could've stopped it
Stabbed me in my back over what prick?
And I ain't saying that you planned that
But you must've got a phone
Call saying "Stand back"
How could a man hand over a man's strap?
No homo, you were meant to watch a man's back
Are you listening? It's sickening and facts
It's past sickening, it's lethal, Anthrax
I built an empire from a couple gram wraps
All your friends liars
Petty hustlers and rats
Back to the setup now
You said you couldn't intervene ten minutes
You could've been there in the scene
Twelve hours passed
During that you'd either been told
Or been known, that makes you involved
Was you really in the hoopty
Or did you lie more?
Or was you really in Luton
Behind your wife's doors?
Dunno why I ever brang you in
You'll probably die poor
Now I'm just sitting here brewing
I'm thinking "Why talk?"
It kinda hurts within that
I've done hurtful things
There's still good in me
Hope God doesn't curse my sins
'06, addition to my squad
I thought you burst your ting
It was all my crud that made me tough
Can't reverse what's been
I've seen mad hating lead to mad snaking
I learned to have patience
Getting mad waiting
I've seen man betray me that I had faith in
I used to eat with your
Mum you little sad pagan
And you ain't ever had proper paper
Mother in the cupboard
Had them clones in the propagator
You ain't ever seen a proper set-up
I was in Leeds
Came back the whole crop got ate up
I had to reassess a lot of things
I had to breathe a bit, stop and think
I wasn't eating enough
I'm still abusing piff
I wasn't sleeping much, I was losing it
I've seen friends turn to foes
I was confused a bit
Once this creme's on the road
I hit the troops with it
Took some time off, that wasn't lucrative
But I'm older and I'm wiser
And I'm used to this
I'm tired of wasting P's on stupid shit
Thinking bout Louis kicks and newish whips
Still getting dirty money
I ain't through with it
I'm in the booth to spit
And to make moves legit
Look at how everything on
Ends went so pear-shaped
What was there fake, now I need airplay