Patrick de Belen - Fearwrite lyrics

I'm scared of heights
I heard it's lonely at the top
Dying alone is a given
But living alone is not

I'm scared of being complacent
While hoping for something different
I need a lifesworth of photos first before
I could figure out what's missing

I'm scared of people thinking
That I have a boring life
So I delete photos when they
Get less than 100 likes
I'm scared that I don't even know
If I want to be happy
Or just find a way to fix it
To burn it all down
Or if I just need someone to listen
I'm scared of kicking the bucket with
A bucketlist in my hand
To have grown and whithered and
Still never been a man when it counted most

I'm scared of being broke
And never knowing when I'm rich
The benifets of a bag
Can't buy time spent with your kids

I'm scared of revolving doors
How I'll do all the work
Just to miss the window
End up right where I was before
Never having much but always wanting more
Gave up their life so I can hate mine?
Can't make money or make time
And they're wondering why they
Even moved here for

I'm scared of being 60
With a wife that never wants
To get naked with me
Faking a smile at family
Parties for stupid reasons
Like "forcing it for the kids" as
If we don't already see it

Grow up and then repeat it

I'm scared of change
And everything staying the same
And of what my hands will do
When I don't know what to say
So I'm always fucking talking
Filling dead space looking for options
To fix my problems
Rather than actually talk about them

I'm scared of losing the people I love
And the people I love losing me
That's why I don't own a gun
Drive drunk or spend too much
Time on the balcony
I just know how fragile life could be

I'm scared that we can just
Stare at death and laugh
And maybe that's just where we're at
I'm scared that I don't care
Whether it's you or me
Life is nice, we're just not too attached
I don't know what to do with that

I'm scared that no one will love
Me unless I learn to myself
When at this moment I'm staying
Alive for someone else
And look, I may not be the biggest fan of me
But honestly part of me thinks that
Hope in a reflection kinda helps

What scares me most
We don't talk about what scares us
That we'll share everything but
What's behind the camera
You said you fear the unknown
But, you and me we met at random
So maybe this time
We don't all feel so abandoned

Because more than heights
I'm scared of being underground
Without saying any of this outloud