Phix - PAIN lyrics

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain no, I can't take it
I can't take it away

Drifted but I'm so tired I can't even sleep
I been awake for so long I
Lost count of the sheep
When I think I smoke more
And the cycle repeats
I'm weak and my throat's sore
From trying to scream

And when I drink I grow horns
That's the sign of the beast
When they be askin' how I'm
Doin' I'm lyin' to peeps
I ain't gon lie when I go home
I just cry in the sheets
And pray to God that when I crash
I don't die in my sleep

I may never live up to the
Man that I'm dyin' to be
I keep down this troubled path that
I might have to leave
My mind's more violent then the shit
You would find in the streets
I'm at my wit's end with who
That I'm trying to be

Battle addiction
Needing what I want but can't get it
This story stems from isolation
In the pandemic
I'm goin' toe to toe with rappers
That you worship and call Gods
And against all odds that man did

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain no, I can't take it
I can't take it away

One day I'm amazing and the next day
I just want it to end
Make it seem like I ain't phased
When I run into friends
Hard to know if I'm better
So I try to pretend
So, I just drink and smoke until
I'm in bed with the spins

But, I know they can't wait to
See the day I gotta deal
Swallowing pride ain't as easy
As swallowing pills
Demons in your life, man, everybody got 'em
If they try me Imma make it everybody problem

I always blame my parents for
The man that I'm not
My father told me I'd be 30
And still pushing a mop
And if I was he'd disown me
Right there on the spot
But won't you look at him now? Calling me
Giving me props

But next time that you try to call me
Know now that that call fails
Did this on my own
You rappers telling tall tails
I'm trying to be the best
Number one and nothing less
I wanna take over the world
Your mission is just a small scale

I swear I can't stand it
This life has shot me down
Silver bullets of pain no, I can't take it
I can't take it away